Forever Us

Chapter 23

Pov: Winter/Gwen
After I let my emotions out to Summer, I felt like this huge weight was lifted off my shoulders. I haven't talk to anyone like that in a long time. Knowing I can't go to a therapist given the situation. Summer has just been sitting there for about 10 minutes trying to figure out what to say. I let her in my head and I think she knows what it's like to live in my world. I hope no one ever has to.
I began to let her wander into a place I'd never let anyone into. A dark place. Were all my nightmares and painted and memories live. These days it seems to feel like I'm slowly letting that place of my mind take me deeper and deeper. Like there was some kind of current pulling me down into the hole. I've lived in this world before and I'm not letting it build a house in my head.
This place was a place I lived in for months on months. Everyday that place would slowly take over my body. It was taking over my actions not only toward myself but to other people. I lost friends during this time. I didn't understand what was happening to me. I'd heard of depression, but not like I should have.
Soon after my parents were murdered, I just gave up. I stopped reaching up for someone to save me. I let myself be swallowed by the hole. I wanted it all to end.
I didn't have any extended family. I only had my mom and dad. That's all I had. They were my hope the people I started reaching for help for. When that slipped right through my fingertips there was nothing to live for.
I didn't know where I'd go. At the time I was staying with Summer. I never knew that her parents were my Godfather and Godmother.
The police didn't do anything. They said that since we chose to live in a bad neighborhood it was coming for us. They didn't even understand.

Summer's POV
After the deep conversation I had with Winter I go to my room and get ready. I go through my suitcase and find a really cute shirt that says "This Is Your Year To Sparkle" on it and a pair of jeans. I slipped on my outfit on and brushed out my hair. I curled it and put on my hat.
"ASHTON! WILL YOU DO MY MAKEUP?" I yell
"YA. LET ME FINISH MY SANDWICH!" I hear him yell from the kitchen
"OK" I yell a couple minutes later he walks and let me just say he looked so cute. He was wearing a dark blue shirt that says "PIZZA TIME!" on it and blue jeans. I picked his outfit out.Anyway he walks over and opens the makeup bag he has for me. He pulls out some black eyeshadow and some gold eyeshadow. He applies and black and gold smokey eye and some light mascara. He made me look like a supermodel.
"Thank you. I feel like a supermodel." I say smiling
"No problem. I think you look prettier when your all natural" he whispers
"Thanks" I say already feeling a blush creep upon my cheeks.
"Are we still hanging out tonight?" He whispers trying not to let other people here us
"Ya." I say smiling
"Cool. Wear something fancy." He says
"You already told me. I'm about to go to the mall. I'm dragging Winter with me."
"But..."
"Don't worry. She figured it out. She won't tell." I say
"I mean I'm sure she won't tell but I just don't want her thinking now that we're together we can't still all be friends" he says worry showing in his voice
"It'll be fine. She didn't seem upset at all."
"Ok. If you say so." He says still not sounding so sure. With that he walked out of the room I grabbed my purse, my phone and the 100 dollar bill that I got from my old job at the diner. Let me just say that was a great day. A old man came in got his food and handed me a 100 dollar bill. Man. It makes me smile just thinking about it.
    I walk to the kitchen to find Winter all ready in a black three quarter length shirt that says "That's Not Very Punk Rock of You" on it and black jeans.
"Hey. Get your shoes on." I tell her
"Why?" she asks
"We are going to the mall." I say matter a factly
"Thats funny and not happening" she says a smirk across her face
"Ya. It is. Now get your shoes on."
"No"
"Yes"
"No"
"Yes"
"No"
"Yes."
"Why?"
"I need a dress"
"Why?"
"I have a date." I whisper
"Fine." she says giving up and going to get her shoes on
We walk out the door and get in the van. I drive us to the mall and park in a parking place.
"Don't forget. Your name is Gwen and my name is Anna Marie"
"I won't forget"
"Ok." and with that we got out of the car and walked into the mall. We walked to Charlotte Russe and started browsing the racks. I walk over to the dress section and look around.
"Hey" I hear someone say from behind me
"Hello?" I say turning around very slowly
"Can I help you?" the guy asks nicely
"Do you work here?"
"Ya." he says
"No thanks. I don't need any help."
"Ok" He says walking away
I kept browsing a collecting cute dresses. I find several cute dresses. I find a red strapless one a purple one with a open back and a black frilly dress with sparkles all over the top.  I walk back to the dressing room and try the red one on.
I walk out and Winter says "NO. That dress is horrible. It is too tight."
"I agree" I say walking back in and trying on the purple one.
When I walk out Winter says "Cute!"
"I LOVE this one but Ashton hates purple so I'm going to try on the next one." I say
I put the last one on and it fits perfectly. It is so perfect.
"Its perfect" I say as I walk out
"I agree. Now go change so we can leave this horrid place." Winter says making me laugh
    We walk out of the mall after I change out of and buy the dress. We drive home and I look at my phone and see that it is already five o'clock. Ashton and I are supposed to be leaving at 6. I run inside and take a quick shower. I jump out and dry my hair. I brush it out then curl it quickly. I just keep the makeup that Ashton already did for me and run to the room. I slip on my dress and black black heels. I look at my phone to see that it is exactly six o'clock. I go down stairs and get in the car quickly avoiding mom completely.