Finding Little Parker

Chapter 11

Guess what guys 3.87k we are getting there. Parker above.

After a long talk last night with Jaike we have decided to spend as much time as we can with Parker as possible. We don't want to lose him but it isn't looking good. Judges always decide with the birth mother. I just hope that today won't be the same.

All morning I had been making a picnic whilst Jaike collected a blanket, toys and a change of clothes for Parker. I strapped Parker into the car and hopped into the front seat whilst Jaike drove.

We took Parker to the park where it all started. The park where we found our little baby boy. It hasn't changed since the last time we were here years ago.

I handed Parker to Jaike whilst I laid out the blanket. I spread his toys out on the blanket sitting down holding my hands out to take Parker from his arms. I sat Parker between my legs playing gently with his cars pretending to race. While we were doing that Jaike was getting the food out one by one giving Parker grapes.

I think Parker could sense something was wrong because he would leave mine or Jaike's embrace.

Once all the food was gone and Parker was through with playing we packed up and headed home. I unloaded the car while Jaike put Parker down to sleep. Over and over again I was thinking about all of those times we have spent with Parker.

Flashback
Jaike and I have had Parker for a week now but right now it feels like just me. Ever since the day in the store Jaike and I have barely talked. He only seems to be home at night when he only needs to talk to me when Parker wakes up.

Right now I was laid on the couch with my knees bent. Parker was laid on my legs so it looked as if he was standing. Holding his hands I would move my knees so he would fall through. His cheeks would turn up giving me a gummy smile with two little dimples.

All of a sudden Jaike came walking through the door, I joked "you still live here?"

He slowly nodded his head "as long as you haven't kicked me out?"

I nodded my head "not that I recall but you are barely here."

Jaike sat down at my feet giving Parker a peck on his head "I thought I would give you space."

I shook my head "we now have a kid together Jaike you are in or out there is no I between."

Jaike asked, "and what do you want me in or out Cam?"

I shrugged my shoulders "it doesn't matter what I want Jaike because it is about what you want. Look at this beautiful little boy and decide."

With that said Jaike stood up and walked out of the house. He left me and Parker here to fend for ourselves. This is not what I wanted, I wanted for him to tell me he wants to stay by us and be there but he didn't.

Parker wouldn't stop crying it has been hours since Jaike left and I have tried everything feeding him, changing his nappy, burping him even just holding him didn't work. Now I have just left him in his cot to cry it's not like he is teething or has a temperature. I was so close to breaking, tears were streaming down my cheeks and he wouldn't stop.

I can't take care of this baby alone I needed Jaike. I was about to head into Jaike's room to once again hold his when Jaike came walking through my door.

I asked, "I thought you had left us?"

He shook his head "I sold my apartment because I live here, I also sold my others things and have the rest of my stuff. I would never leave you guys Cameron."

I ran into his arms full on crying "don't do that again!"

He hugged me back wrapping me tightly in his arms "what's going on Cam you look like hell."

I chuckled at his comment "he won't stop crying since you left and there is nothing wrong."

Together we walked into Parkers room, I lifted him into my arms gently rocking him back and forth. Jaike came up behind me wrapping his arms around mine also holding him. Almost instantly this child stopped crying. I looked over to Jaike smiling at him "he was missing his dad."

Jaike cheered up at my comment quickly kissing my temple "I am sorry I made you think that I had left you."

I shook my head at him "I am sorry for overreacting and everything else."

He cuddled his face onto my neck "we are both so screwed up over my brother that is why I never wanted to tell you, Cam."

I nodded my head "I should have never pushed you into telling me."

I could feel him run his nose over my neck "let's get this little one to bed."

I slowly nodded my head "I bet he's tired."

Jaike joined me in bed after doing the dishes, he asked "what are you thinking about the baby?"

I kissed his lips before responding "back when we first got Parker and I had thought you had walked out on me."

Jaike nodded his head recalling that memory also "I sold my apartment so I could spend more time with you and Parker."

I nodded "and he only stopped crying when you also held him."

Jaike chuckled "I also remember teasing you that night."

I ran my nose along his neck asking "like that."

He coyly smiled at me "I was really holding myself back that night."

I nodded my head rolling away from him "oh I remember I felt your boner and I also remember moaning coming from the bathroom that night from what I presume was you jacking off."

After I said that Jaike went quiet for a while "you could have helped me!" I laughed shaking my head.