Writings, rants, questions, poems, really just my life in a book.

Love letters lost to the wind

i still have the letters you wrote me. do you remember them ? the ones you sent me when i was away at the house. i read them sometimes. they bring back all the memories from before i left. do you remember that ? how it was right before spring break and you hugged me before getting on the buses, you tried to give a little Shrek guy telling me "take this so you don't forget me". i still regret not taking it and then on Wednesday, April 8, the night before i left you text me. telling me "see you later" and you will see me when i get back and that you will give me a big hug. then when i was there at the house we couldn't call because i had no phone. so we wrote letters. i would wait for the mailman everyday anticipating the arrival of a new letter from you. i would get them and read them on the little island in the road outside under the hot April sun. when it would pour rain i would sit on the little green couch and stare out at the flowers starting too bloom and think about how much you would love the view. it was small, but it was beautiful and i knew you would like it. i would re-read your letters hundreds of times before i would write you one back. i always hoped they made you smile as much as yours made me smile. now i hope you re-read them as much as i do. they still make me as happy as the first day i got them, just now they bring sadness with them. they carry not only you and the memories of how we used to be, but they bring all the memories from what was some of the best times of my life. i wish we could go back, but i guess maybe we weren't meant to be forever like we always said we were.