Second Time Around // Newt x Reader

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(The picture is supposed to be River.) (Y/L/N Means your last name.)

          You didn't realize you were falling asleep until you couldn't pull yourself out of it. Great. That means dreams. And dreams for you were awesome (sarcasm).

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You were standing alone in a bedroom. It must have been yours. Papers scattered all over the floor. Your head was down, hair covering your face. You had a worried look on your face. Your bloodshot, dilated eyes would snap in all directions like you were expecting something to jump out at you. You shut your eyes and groaned, moving your hands up to rub your face. You bent down and picked up a glass bottle that was on its side, leaning against your bed leg. You held the bottle in front of you and studied it. You suddenly had a panic attack and really annoyed. You started breathing heavy and waving your hand in your face to get some air. You screamed at the top of your lungs and threw the bottle as hard as you can at the wall. It smashed into tiny little glass shards. You noticed a pile of broken glass surrounding your room fully. You could feel yourself slipping, slowly losing your mind. Sanity didn't even seem to be a word to you anymore. Heaven knows you've tried. It does. Yet it wont help in any way. The Maze did this to you, and no one seemed to care. They brought you back and did nothing else. Your mom was a klunk load of help, ignoring you and helping other people. When it came down to you, she would turn the other way. You heard a small whimper from the corner. Your head snapped up. You immediately stopped screaming. River was standing in the corner, crouched down and her hands covering her head. Her pigtails falling in front of her face. You slowly walked over to her. You crouched down and hesitantly put a hand on her back, trying not to scare her anymore then you already have.

"River? You okay?" You asked.

"You- you scared me." River said putting her arms down and relaxing a little bit. Her voice was one of the cutest things you have ever heard. It wasn't too squeaky, yet wasn't too low. It was the perfect mixture of a three year old girl voice and angels singing. You could swear this kid was a miracle.

"I'm sorry. I didn't mean to."

"I know, its okay."

"Did I hurt you? I totally forgot you were here."

"No. I'm okay. Are you okay?"

You smiled and ran your hand over her fly-aways. You knew you weren't but you couldn't let her know. She would understand, but you didn't want her to be worried about you. You knew she was just as smart as you. Your operation was just a couple days away and you were so glad. You didn't have to hide it anymore. "Yeah," You lied, "I'm okay."

"(Y/N)?" River asked standing up.

"Yes, River?" You asked standing and holding her hand.

"I - I'm scared."

"Why?"

"I heard them talking about you."

"What did they say?"

"I don't know. They shut the door after I heard your name."

"Oh. It will be alright."

"I don't want you to go, (Y/N)."

"Go where?"

"Crazy."

Something struck you inside. This little girl, who was only three, knew you were going insane. "Who told you that?" You bent down to her height.

"I can tell. Your face will get all red and angry," She said, putting her hands on your cheeks "Something in your eyes changed, you haven't eaten in days, you're really skinny, but you're happy around me, Tom, Teresa, and Ari," Ari was her nickname for Aris, "You used to be happy around Min, Alby, Gally, and Newt. What happened to them, (Y/N)?"