Love the Way You Lie

Another Side

It has been about a year. If I remember correctly. I've tried to ask for forgiveness for what I've done. But no matter how hard I try, nothing will bring me peace.
I've tried everything I could while in this jail cell. Yes, indeed I was sent to prison. Because of Nat's testimonials of what he saw, they beloved him over me. Not that there was any good reason for them to. I was caught around three days later trying to find where D was. Eddward I mean, my Dork.
While he never did press charges, what damage I had done to Nat was what got me in here. But still, I think two years is pushing it.

My first night here, I took the time to let out my frustrations on anyone I could lay my hands on. Unfortunately, I got my hands on the top dogs bitch. I had suffered a fractured rib, and a couple of cuts on my arms and torso. I laid in my own cell bleeding and hurting as they left. It got me thinking, was this even a fraction of what I put D through?

Once I got better, I knew it was best to keep to myself. Though it was one fight, well... Not even, there was no way I would have won against gonzilla, who- I learned- was several cells from me. Whatever it would be classified as, I knew that when I got out D would be waiting for me. And I would need to apologize. There was no way, no reason for me to do any of that to him.

I remembered, I made a unspoken promise to him. To love him no matter his flaws, fails, and literally everything. I still remember that day, when he felt so much trust to show me what was under that sock. To be honest, it matched him perfectly. I loved it, and I loved him. I still do, anyone else who says I don't, is Fucking lair... I may have done him bad, but I still loved him.

To be honest I didn't even know why or what drove me to even be like that to him. I knew his life and how much he hurt from being neglected by his parents. Then kicked out of the family his freshman year because he came out. I remember that, because on the first day, he wasn't his usual nerdy dorky self. He was alone and kept to himself. And to be honest, he sort of reeked as if he hadn't had a good shower in a couple of days.

But luckily he had the other two dorks. From my understanding Edd stayed with Eddie. He really didn't seem to mind Edd was gay. Queer. Whichever is preferred.

So story, story, story, I finally fell for the dork. I'm not much for sappy lovey things, but I most certainly did fall for him in a sense that I wanted to know him more than just that dorky kid I used to pick on.

Story story story, we graduated. Now it doesn't take a genius to fix up cars, ok maybe a little bit. But the classes I took in high school gave me certification. I was hired immediately. Edd of course, probably had his PhD in chemistry. He was hired later though. After all who'd want a 18 Year old kid in a lab?

Story story story, I remember when I first hit him. It must have really hurt for him, but I just felt so much anger. For what. I don't know.

I just need to make it to the end of this sentence. I'll be back to Double D, and we can make this work. I know we can. We have to.