Without You There Is No Me (kellic)

Chapter 2

Kellin's POV:

My mouth dropped open in surprise. "You're gay!?" I almost shouted. A few people turned to us and gave us weird looks but I just ignored them. Vic was blushing and looked extremely embarrassed. I suddenly felt sorry for him because, like me, he probably doesn't want a lot of people knowing.

"Yeah, I am. Sorry, I just thought that you shoud know." he said without making eye contact with me. He looked so cute and insecure right now and I just wanted to pull him into a hug and tell him that everything was going to be alright but I knew that I shouldn't.

"No! Vic don't be sorry, I should be the one apologizing since I sorta just screamed that out load. Anyway, I- I'm gay too." I said, mumbling the last part. Vic's eyes got wider and he just stared at me with his mouth open.

"Are you serious, Kellin?" Vic asked me as the surprised expression on his face started to fade. I nodded shyly, realizing that I had just done the one thing that I had sworn to myself I wasn't going to do.

"Yeah, I wasn't going to tell you because at my old school I was bullied for being gay and I don't want to start that all over an-" I started spilling out everything that I had planned to keep a secret but Vic cut me off by reaching his hand across the table and resting it on top of mine.

"Kellin, theres no need to worry about that. Even if I wasn't gay, I wouldn't judge you because of it." I didn't know how to respond to him because nobody has been this nice to me since my parents died. I knew I was blushing so I stared down at my lap and avoided making eye contact with him. When he put his hand on mine, I instantly had that weired but good feeling in the pit of my stomach. That feeling didn't last long though because soon he was pulling his hand away.

"Trust me Kellin. I know what it's like to be judged and I'm not going to look at you any different because you're gay. That would just make me a hypocrite." He reassured me with a small laugh at the end.

"Thank you so much, Vic. I was so worried that college was going to be just like high school." I said to him probably sounding pathetic.

"No problem," he sad with a small smile, "It looks like its getting dark. We should probably get back to the room and unpack." I nodded quickly and then we got up and were on our way back to our dorm building.

We didn't talk about much on the way back just about classes that we were taking. I found out that Vic was going to be in my history class. That really excited me because at least I would have someone to talk to and not look like a complete outcast. It took us about twenty minutes to get back to our building from the pizza place. We found it more easily than before since we were both starting to get a little familiar with the campus.

As we walked into the building and up the stairs, I heard a voice calling my name from behind me which was weired because I couldn't think of anyone who would want to talk to me. I had barely met anyone here yet. Vic and I both turned around quickly. I was afraid to see who it might be but I was relieved to see that it was the two guys that I had met earlier, Alex and Jack.

"Hey guys! How's your first day going?" Alex asked in an overly cheery tone.

"Good." I answered quickly. They were just about the friendliest people in the world, so I feel kinda bad for not being friendly back but I just wasn't in the mood for them right now. I had enough on my mind.

"Who's this?" Jack said and motioned towards Vic.

"Oh, this is my roommate, Vic." I replied as Vic waved at them.

"Well hello Vic! I'm Jack and this is Alex. We are going to be your dorm advisors this year." Jack said still having an overly friendly tone to his voice. I still wasn't sure what exactly a dorm advisor did but like I said, I wasn't in the mood to talk to them so I didn't bother to ask.

"Cool, see you guys around!" Vic said to them and we both turned away and started walking towards our room. I could tell that Vic also wanted to get away from them and their overly friendly personalities.

When we got back to our room, we spent the next hour or so just hanging out and unpacking. Vic had a lot more stuff then I did so when I finished unpacking, I helped him unpack and it was actually pretty fun. I learned a lot of things about him like he's really close to his brother, Mike, and he plays guitar. I figured that he played guitar because earlier when he put his hand on mine, I could feel his calloused fingers.

I guess we had been unpacking for a long time because soon it was midnight so we went to sleep. I was trying really hard to actually go to sleep but I couldn't. I couldn't stop thinking about Vic. It was so new to me to actually have someone to talk to and to have someone who seemed to care about me. There was a bad side to this though. I could easily see myself falling for Vic and even though he was gay, it was obvious that he only saw me as a roommate or a friend but nothing more.