Without You There Is No Me (kellic)

Chapter 10

When I woke up the next morning, Vic was asleep so I decided to not wake him up and let him sleep while I went off to class. I didn't want to wake him up and seem clingy or anything.

After getting ready for class, I walked out into the hallway preparing myself for the awkward conversation that I was about to have with Jaime. I still had no idea what I was actually going to say or how I was going to say it. I'm a pretty fragile person, so I think I should be pretty good at preserving other peoples feelings. I just really wanted to get this over with.

As I walked into the classroom, I quickly scanned the room looking for Jaime but he was no where to be seen. He was always there before me so I was getting a little worried that something had happened to him. Or that he did something to himself. Sure, he could've just been sick but what are the odds of that happening at such an inconvenient time.

I was going to leave to go look for Jaime, but I saw Andy walking down the hallway. Luckily, he didn't see me so I quickly walked over to my seat and sat down.

"What, your little body guard left you alone today?" Andy said referring to Jaime as he walked past me. Oh, if only he knew.

The class was going by painfully slow but by now, there were only two minutes left. I was getting really worried about Jaime because throughout the whole class, I couldn't stop myself from thinking of reasons why he wasn't here. I know that Tony said he was fine but that is what I used to always do. I would pretend that I was fine around people but when I was alone, I was anything but fine.

When the class finally ended, I shot up from my chair and bolted out the door. I maneuvered my way through the campus and the halls on my way to Jaime's room. I was so worried because if he was anything like me, he would've hurt himself by now and he definitely didn't deserve that.

I got to his room and knocked on the door a few times. There was no answer so I decided to just let myself in. Jaime was in there laying on his bed just staring at the ceiling. He looked over to me when he realized that I was there.

"Hey, Hime." I said walking in even more. He looked up and put on the best fake smile that he could manage.

"Oh, hi Kellin, what's up?" He said. I could hear the stressed tone hidden in his voice.

"Nothing, I just wanted to make sure you were okay since you weren't in class." I said.

"Yeah, I'm fine. I just wasn't feeling well." He responded but he looked really nervous so I could tell that it was a lie.

"Okay look, about yesterday I-," I started but he cut me off.

"No, Kellin don't. It's fine. I completely understand." Jaime said. I didn't really believe it was fine though. I wanted to make sure that it wouldn't change anything between us.

"I know that but I just don't want this to end up changing anything between us as friends." I explained.

"Don't worry about it. Nothing is going to change." He assured me. This time, he smiled a smile that actually looked genuine which relieved me, but I still had to tell him about me and Vic.

"Okay, thank you, but there's something else I have to say. I don't know how to say this and I would never want to hurt you but I know that I will have to tell you eventually but-" I started rambling on while pacing across the floor.

"Out with it." He interrupted without any expression on his face. I sighed.

"Vic and I are dating." I said quickly as if I were ripping off a bandage. Jaime looked so surprised more than anything.

"That's great. I'm happy for you guys." He said but I knew that wasn't true. I could hear the pain in his voice. I looked at him with sympathy.

"Really Kellin, you don't need to worry about me. You need to think about yourself and be happy." He reassured me.