Without You There Is No Me (kellic)

Chapter 7

Kellin's POV:

The next morning, I left the room as soon as possible. After hearing, Vic say that he was falling for me last night, I just wanted to get as far away from him as possible so that I could sort out my thoughts. I absolutely could not believe this was actually happening. He liked me. I liked him. Something could actually come from this but I'm not sure if I even want it to. Whenever I get close to someone, I'm always the one who ends up getting hurt in the end. He doesn't even know that I heard him. He thought I was asleep. How would I even be able to tell him about it? There's no way I can just say it out of nowhere.

What if he was just saying it to play with my mind? That was a big problem in my life. I could never trust anyone with anything. Whenever I trusted someone in the past, they ended up breaking that trust and just turning into a waste of my time. I don't want to think of this situation to be like that, though. I really don't believe that Vic would do something like that to me. He really seems to care, so I'm pretty sure that he actually means it.

I guess I'd been walking for a while because the next thing I knew, I was walking into the hall of my class. Before I could actually walk in, I felt someone bump into me and when I turned around to see who it was, I revealed Satan himself. Andy.

"Hey bud, what's up?" he asked as he put his arm around my shoulder. He mad a smug grin on his face and he looked overly comfortable.

"Get off." I commanded bluntly as I shook my shoulders free.

"Well that's no way to speak to your buddy now is it?" He said in a mocking tone and putting emphasis on the word 'buddy' . I don't know what was up with this whole act but I definitely don't like it.

The two of us were just staring at each other with pure hatred when suddenly, a thought crossed my mind. The seat. Like I've said before, the seat really doesn't matter to me, but it matters to Andy and I hate Andy so I just really don't want him to have anything his way. It's spiteful, I know.

My eyes widened and I rushed passed Andy into the classroom. When I walked in, more like sprinted in, I saw Jaime sitting in my seat. Well, Andy's seat but the seat that I usually sit in. I couldn't care less but Andy would. Even though he wouldn't be sitting there anyway. I wonder why Jaime would do that. After all, Jaime was the one who was so conscious of Andy when I first came here. He was the one to warn me about Andy in the first place.

I stopped in my place and gave him a curious look. Andy bumped into me again from behind. I was actually kind of embarrassed this time since I easily could have avoided it. I looked down at my feet and quickly walked over to the empty seat in front of Jaime and sat down.

"What's going on, Jaime?" I asked him.

"My seat was taken." He said and shrugged his shoulders like it was no big deal but I could tell that it was a huge deal to him. I know how scared of Andy he is. Why he's so scared, I have no idea, and why he was sitting there, that was over my head too.

"Fucking seriously?!" Andy said as he slammed his hands down on my desk. I guess he was giving up on the whole nice guy act from before. Jaime was looking up at him with pure terror. I could see it in his eyes. I was actually pretty scared at this point too. What if he was going to do something to Jaime now and Jaime wouldn't want to be around me because of it? What if he blames me? I could handle Andy being an asshole to me, but the thing I can't handle is when people who I thought were on my side turn against me.

"You and you're friends are like a little wanna-be Mexican gang with their gay queen." Andy said and pushed my head to the side with his hand as he walked through the isle. There he goes again calling me gay. I can't fucking stand that!

When I looked back at Jaime, he looked kind of upset but I didn't get a lot of time to look because Mr.Hills was beginning class.

The next hour went by pretty fast and soon, class was over. I stayed behind with Jaime as we waited for the class to be completely empty before we walked out.

"So what was that all about?" I asked him. He looked at me with an expression of complete worry.

"Oh God, I have no idea. I wanted to take some of the pressure off of you since you're my friend and all, but I-" he started rambling on.

"Hey," I cut him off. "Don't be so worried. Like you told me on the first day, he's just an egotistical asshole." I said with a small laugh at the end.

"Thanks Kellin. I just really wish I hadn't put a target on my back." Jaime said, still not breaking that worried look on his face.

"Trust me, I'm a much bigger target than you."

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I was now walking into my history class, still not ready to see Vic. I still had no idea if I should say anything about hearing what he said to me, but I definitely wasn't going to say anything in the middle of class, so I had nothing to worry about. For now.

As I walked in, I saw Vic sitting in a seat towards the back so I walked in and took the unoccupied seat next to him.

"Hey, Kellin." He said calmly.

"H-hey, Vic." I said and then quickly looked away. Fucking seriously? Stuttering? Get a grip, Kellin.

"What's wrong?" Vic said and looked at me with those big, brown eyes of his.

"Oh, nothing. I'm fine." I said, thankfully managing not to stutter again. It was so strange how he could be so oblivious of what was going through my mind right now. I was basically going through hell trying to keep myself together and he had absolutely no idea why.

Throughout class, I couldn't stop myself from glancing over at Vic. He just looked so hot as he concentrated on scribbling notes down in his notebook. I probably should've been doing the same thing but, eh, I liked this better.

When class was over, we just walked around campus and joked around like usual. I was probably acting a little different since I couldn't get what he said off of my mind. I don't think he noticed though.

We met up with Jaime and Tony too for a little while. Jaime was acting really weird. Weirder than I was acting. He just wasn't acting as happy and hyper as he usually did. The only time he seemed like himself, was when Tony and Vic left to go get food while we stayed in his room.

It couldn't have just been what happened earlier with Andy. That really wasn't a big deal. Maybe it was a pretty big deal to him, but I knew that something else was going on inside his mind. I was just about to ask him, when Tony and Vic returned and my chance was ruined.

As soon as they walked in, Jaime went right back to acting weird again. He went from being cheerful and talkative to just slumping down in his chair and barely saying a word. He was talking a little when Tony or I was talking but when Vic said something, he just kept quiet. It was almost like he was mad at Vic. Nothing happened between them, I would know about it by now. I just couldn't figure out what was going on.

When Vic and I finally left and got back to our room, I couldn't help but ask him if he noticed it too.

"Vic, did you notice that Jaime was acting weird?" I asked. He looked at me as if he was surprised that I was asking.

"Yeah, I did actually. Did something happen to him?" he asked.

"No, not that I know of. I was actually going to ask you the same thing." I said.

"Huh, that's weird." He said and by now, we were about to go to sleep.

Suddenly, I was remembering what he said last night. He didn't know that I heard, of course, so I was contemplating asking him.

"Hey Vic?" I said. My face was probably 100 different shades of red. I was so nervous and I still didn't know exactly how to say it.

"Yeah?" He said as he turned around from his bed to look at me.

"Uh- never mind. Goodnight." Goddammit. I chickened out. Maybe it was for the best.

"Ok. Well, goodnight." he said and we both went to go to sleep. I just knew that I was now going to have this thought dawning on me all night long.