Without You There Is No Me (kellic)

Chapter 12

AUTHOR'S NOTE: Woah, look its an update! ;)

P.S: I was planning on writing smut in this but nope nope nope I chickened out. I just can't do it. I'm a chicken I know... but regardless of the lack of smut, ENJOY :)



KELLIN'S POV:

I woke up at about 3am the next morning. I was still laying in Vic's bed, wrapped in his arms. I could barely see his face in the dim moonlight that was shining through the window. He looked so adorable in his sleep.

After admiring the sleeping Vic, I realized that I should probably go back to my own bed so I slowly tried to pry myself from his arms so that I wouldn't wake him.

"Stay." Vic mumbled in his sleepy state. Well, I guess I was staying here for the rest of the night.

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It's been about two weeks since Vic and I got together. Things have been going pretty good. I can feel myself falling for him more and more every day. We've just been hanging out and cuddling and stuff but every day just feels so special. I don't what about him it is that makes me so happy but whatever it is, I'm loving it.

Also, we've been kissing a lot. Like, A LOT, a lot. It's like we just can't get enough of each other and I'm really enjoying that. There was one night where we almost went farther. I chickened out, though. I lost my virginity in high school to my old boyfriend Justin, so it shouldn't really be a big deal to me but I just don't think that I was mentally ready to do it again. I am trying to build up the confidence to do it though, because I felt kind of bad for Vic. I didn't want to make him sexually deprived just because I was too scared. Maybe I'll do it some time soon. I really just don't want to end up doing it and regretting it in the end. I kind of just wanted to do it with someone I truly loved and even though I really, REALLY liked Vic, love is an extremely powerful word.

Things with Jaime went back to normal. He was a little resistant in the beginning to hanging out as a group with me and Vic but Tony convinced him. Once he actually gave in, he's just been acting like none of it ever happened, which is definitely a good thing.

The only bad thing is Andy. To put it simply, its getting worse. In addition to the normal shit that he gives me, he's been doing more big things to cause me whatever pain he possibly can, physical or emotional. I don't know what he's getting out of it but for some reason he likes doing it. For example, earlier in the week, I was in the bathroom just minding my own business when he silently can in and punched me so that I was left on the floor with a bloody nose and he locked the bathroom door while he looked back at me with a look of satisfaction filling his face. Before he closed the door though, the muttered 'queer' with a look of disgust. I was stuck in there for about an hour before someone finally opened the door so that I was able to come out. To my surprise though, that person was Gabe, a.k.a one of Andy's little minions.

When he opened the door, his facial expression was almost completely impassive. I did see a little kindness in his eyes, though. He must have known that I was in there and let me out on purpose because after muttering a quick 'go' and me walking off down the hall, he walked in the opposite direction so he obviously wasn't there to use the bathroom. That's why I was really confused. Why would someone who has helped to hurt me in the past suddenly do something to help? If he even had one nice bone in his body why was he hanging out with Andy in the first place?

I didn't tell Vic about any this. I wanted to have his comfort and all, but I knew that he would try to do something to Andy. The last thing I wanted was for Vic to get hurt, especially in the way that I was hurting.

I did tell Jaime, though. Out of everyone other than Vic, he's the person that I trust the most right now. At first I didn't think that I should tell him because I didn't want him to pity me. I really don't need that right now. I ended up being glad that I told him though because he didn't give me that look of pity that I hated. He was just pissed and trying to come of with ways that I could get back at him. Not that I was going to go down that road, though.

Now, I was feeling myself being awakened from my sleep. I opened my tired eyes to see Vic trying to climb over me from his side of the bed since he was next to the wall.

"Good morning." I mumbled. He looked down at me and put his hand on my arm.

"Go back to sleep. I didn't mean to wake you." Vic whispered. I shook my head.

"Nah, it's okay," I said while sitting up. I looked around for the clock to check the time. We both had about an hour before we had to get any classes. "Wanna go get some breakfast?"

"Sure." Vic replied with a smile before leaning down to place a kiss on my lips. I got up and walked over to my dresser to get some clothes to change into. When I turned around, I stopped to admire Vic's body. Since he was changing, he was only in boxers and he looked absolutely gorgeous. I leaned my back against my dresser to just stare at him for a moment. When he noticed me admiring him he smiled and playfully threw one of his shirts at me.

"Pervert." He joked. Sadly, he had put on jeans by this point but he still wasn't wearing a shirt.

"Mmm I can't help it. You'd stare too if you could." I said while biting my lip.

"Oh, really?" Vic said seductively as he walked towards me and crashed his lips into mine.

"Mhm." I mumbled against his lips.
This allowed my lips to part so his tongue could enter my mouth. The kiss was getting more and more heated as Vic lifted me up and pushed me up so that I was sitting on top of my dresser. He started grinding against me and I tried to hold in my moans but it was no use because a moan escaped my lips as Vic moved to my neck and his hands began to play with the bottom of my shirt.

"Ugh, Vic." I moaned again because honestly, who can resist moaning when someone is kissing your neck?

At this point I realized that we had planned to go to breakfast and if I let this little thing keep going, I would defiantly get carried away because I could just feel myself getting turned on. I pulled my neck away from Vic so that I could place my lips on his. Softly this time, unlike it was about a minute ago. I soon pulled out of that kiss, though and maneuvered my way off of the desk but in the way that my arms were still around Vic. I quickly pecked him on the lips again.

"Breakfast time." I whispered before letting go of him and quickly changing my shirt since I hadn't gotten the chance to do so before. He gave a little groan of rebellion but I quickly shot him a playful but serious glare telling him to to protest. He came over to me and placed a small kiss on the back of my neck before backing away to collect his books that he was going to need to bring with him. I followed suit after I changed my shirt and then we were out the door on our way to get breakfast, acting like just the average roommates although, doing that was starting to get harder and harder for not only me, but I could tell it was for Vic too. More and more, he was starting to get a little more touchy when there were just random people around. It was never when there were people that we knew or cared about, but you never know who might use something against you. Trust me on that, I've been there.

When we got to the breakfast place, we ordered at the counter and then just took a small, circular table that was somewhat in the middle of the restaurant, not that it was really a restaurant but... you know what I mean. While we were eating and talking, Vic started rubbing my thigh with his hand, another example of him being more touchy in public. I gave him I quick look so he knew that I didn't approve but he kept doing it.

"Vic, there's people." I said, which there was. It was actually pretty crowded.

"Mhm, I know. I can't help it though." He replied with a cheeky grin. I put my hand on his to move it away but he just turned his hand over so that he could hold my own. He began slowly running his thumb over my fingers. I gave him another disapproving look but I didn't move my hand.

"You know what Kells, I'm starting not to care about what these other people think." He said. I'd be lying if I said that that didn't make my heart speed up. "You're the best I could ask for and I hate the fact that I can't show you off to the world."

"I know Vic, I feel the same way, but I can't have everyone know. Not again." I said, immediately regretting that last part.

"Again?" He questioned. "What do you mean not again?" I could feel my face getting hot.

"Nothing. I-it's nothing." I replied, trying to brush off the topic.

"Kells, I know that something's bothering you. You can tell me anything, you know." Vic said trying to comfort me. It wasn't really helping though because he gave me that sympathetic look that I have gotten so many times before.

"I know I can, but its nothing, really," I said giving him the best little smile I could.

"Okay, fine you don't have to tell me right now. Just, when you're ready." He said, finally understanding that I didn't want to talk about it.

"Thank you."

"No problem. We better get to class." Vic said. I looked at my phone to see that he was right and we only had about ten minutes before class started. We both got up from our seats and walked out the door. When we got out there, Vic pulled me between two buildings so that we were out of anyone's sight and basically attacked my lips with his own. That released any awkward tension that we had from our prior conversation.

"I really like you, Kells." Vic whispered against my lips.

"I know, I really like you too." I replied. We kissed there for about another 30 seconds before I pulled away because I knew that I was making myself late for class.

"We gotta go." I said. Vic nodded as we walked out from between the buildings an split on our own separate ways to get to class.

I was absolutely dreading going to class. Not because of the class itself, but because Andy would be there and wherever Andy is, there's hell being raised.