Without You There Is No Me (kellic)

Chapter 9

AUTHOR'S NOTE: Sorry this chapter took me so long to upload. I've been pretty busy lately and I'm also just lazy. So, ya sorry. Read on!

Kellin's POV:

After realizing what was happening, I lightly pushed Vic away a little to break the kiss. Not that I didn't want to kiss him because trust me, I did, but my mind was just too flustered at the moment.

"Sorry, I shouldn't have done that. I just couldn't stop myself. " Vic said as he backed away looking a little embarrassed.

"No, Vic it's fine. Really, don't be embarrassed. I like you, and of course I want to kiss you... but, I just need to figure out what's going on with... everything. And I just," I cut myself off with a sigh. I couldn't believe what just happened. Never in a million years did I think that I would be able kiss Vic. Never in a million years did I even think that he would like me, but both of those things had just happened.

"Wait, so you actually like me?" Vic said timidly, almost in a way that I had never seen him before. I nodded in reply.

"So, uh, do you want to be my boyfriend?" Vic asked with a nervous smile on his face.
In that moment, I felt like my heart was going to explode. Of coarse I wanted to be Vic's boyfriend. That's all I've wanted since I came to this school, but what about Jaime. The last thing I wanted to do was hurt him. I know what it's like to be in his position and it really sucks, but could I really let this hold me back from dating Vic? I decided not to let it hold me back because at this point in my life, I had to think about trying to put my own life back on track.

"Yes." I said as a smile spread across my face. He leaned in again and planted a kiss on my lips. It was short but completely passionate. It was like all of our longing for each other was channeled into that one kiss and I could feel my heart speeding up.

"Wait, what am I supposed to do about Jaime?" I asked him as I reluctantly broke the kiss. I immediately regretted asking because I just wanted that moment to last forever.

"Well, we're going to have to tell him eventually, so the sooner the better." Vic said with a slightly sad look on his face. I knew that what he was saying was true but I just don't know how I could bring myself to tell him something like that. This couldn't have happened at a worse time.

"Yeah, I guess you're right. I just don't want him to get hurt." I said.

"Jaime is a pretty understanding person. I don't think he's going to be too upset." Vic replied. I guess that was also true so I just nodded. At this point, he had sat down next to me and I was just staring at his big brown eyes. I couldn't help myself so I leaned forward and kissed him. He kissed me back and soon, his tongue was entering my mouth. The kiss wasn't very rough, but it was passionate. I could basically feel the longing that we had both been feeling. I wonder if he has liked me for as long as I've liked him.

The kiss was soon interrupted by a ringing coming from my phone. Vic and I both sighed as he backed away and I reached over the side on the bed to grab my phone. I saw Tony's name on the screen so I hit the button to answer the call.

"Hello?" I said.

"Kellin, I heard what happened with Jaime. I had no idea by the way. What's going on? Are you ok?" He asked in a panicked tone.

"Yeah Tony, I'm fine, but I should be asking you that about Jaime." I said. I looked over at Vic to see him leaning against the wall watching me. When he saw me looking at him, he gave me a small, sympathetic smile because he heard what I was talking to Tony about.

"He's fine. He's just a little upset. I guess this also ruined your plans of telling Vic." He replied. I really hope that Vic didn't hear that because he still had no idea about me overheating him.

"Actually, we're, uh, we're dating." I said. Vic had a smile on his face.

"WHAT!?" Tony screamed into the phone, having the reaction of a teenage girl. "How did it happen? Did you tell him?"

"I'll tell you later. I have to go." I said and hung up before Tony got a chance to say anything.

"So, is Jaime ok?" Vic asked. I don't think he really cared but he asked anyway.

"Yeah. He's fine." I replied.

"Good, and Kellin I just want you to know how much I like you. Ever since we've first got here I knew that I did. I'm not trying to make it awkward or anything, I just really thought that I should tell you." Vic confessed. I must have had the biggest smile on my face. I couldn't believe that Vic had been thinking the same exact thing as me. If I knew, I would have made this happen a lot sooner.

"I like you a lot too, Vic." I replied. He smiled and leaned forward for a quick kiss then he pulled away.

"Wanna go get some pizza?" He asked, still with a smile. I nodded and we both got up to walk out of the room. As we were walking, I realized something. I didn't know how to act in front of people with Vic. I don't think he would want people to know and I definitely didn't. Not that I was embarrassed to be with Vic or anything, I just don't know how the other people here would react. If Andy found out, he would surely use it against me. He already called me a faggot without knowing that I was gay so I couldn't imagine what he would do knowing the truth.

While we were at the pizza place, we didn't really act any differently. We just hung out like we have been doing for the past few weeks. There were people around so kissing wasn't exactly an option.

After we were done eating, we just walked around campus and talked and laughed about pointless things. I was really enjoying my time with him.

Soon, the sun was starting to set and it was beginning to get dark out. We started seeing less and less people out. At one point, we were walking in between two buildings where nobody could see us and I before I knew it, Vic pushed my back up against the brick wall and attached his lips to mine.

When I realized what was happening, I smiled and kissed him back. The kiss started off sweet and simple but soon, his tongue was gliding into my mouth and we transitioned into a pretty hot make out session. It could have and probably would have lasted a lot longer but I heard a gasp coming from the beginning of the path. I was absolutely terrified of who it may be but a wave of relief washed over me when I turned my head to see Alex. He walked over to us with a huge, cheeky smile on his face. It was kind of weird seeing him without Jack, considering they're always together.

"Oh my god!" Alex said as he got to us. "I knew you guys were cute together. When did this happen? How did this happen? Oh sorry, I ruined the moment didn't I? I gotta tell Jack." He rambled on as he took his phone out of his pocket. Vic actually looked pretty amused by this whole situation.

"No no no, don't tell Jack." I said. He looked at me with a confused look but it quickly changed to one of understanding.

"Ahh, I see. You guys are keeping this a secret." Alex said. Vic and I both nodded while my back was still against the brick wall.

"Don't worry I won't tell anyone, but I'm really bad at keeping secrets from Jack. I'll make sure he doesn't tell anyone if I let it slip." Alex said and Vic quickly thanked him.

"I guess I'll leave you two love-birds alone." Alex said smiling as he walked off in the opposite direction. Vic kissed me one more quick time once Alex was gone.

"We should probably get going back to our room." He said. I nodded and we walked off hand in hand because it was dark so no one could see us.

When we got back to our room, we both took showers, sadly separately, and then just hung out for a little while because it wasn't exactly time to go to sleep yet. When it was time to go to sleep, I kissed Vic one last time and then crawled into bed.

As normal, I couldn't really get to sleep, but this time was different. This time, it was because I was happy. All the other times I would stay up being nervous and worrying about what would come the next day. I finally actually had friends. I had Tony, Vic of course, and Jaime. I know that things weren't exactly perfect with Jaime, but Tony said that he would be fine so I could just fix things tomorrow. I was so glad that I was finally able to be with Vic. All of my worrying and anticipation had finally paid off.