A Place in the Sun - cash au-

To Build A Home

Cameron stayed all night with me, I couldn't let him go. Whenever he tried to slip away I would tighten my hold on him. I've missed being in his arms so much, there's no way I could go back to not having him in my life. I want him, I need him and I know he feels the same way.

When I wake up in the morning I find Cameron staring at me with a smile on his face. I blush because he was watching me sleep, I'm sure I drooled all over the place.

"You're so beautiful, Nash. I thought I would never get to see you like this again, I thought I wouldn't ever wake up next to you again. You're so precious to me baby. I love you so much," he tells me gently and I bury my face in his chest shyly. I feel like it's the first time we've ever slept together. He rubs my lower back gently and presses a soft kiss on top of my head.

I've missed his affection, I can't deny it. No one else can make me feel like he does.

"Want breakfast baby?" He asks me and I nod, he makes the best breakfast. He stands from the bed and helps me get up. My balance is still slightly off and I grip his hand as he leads me out to the kitchen. Tony hasn't moved in yet, he's still getting all of his things packed. I feel guilty that I can't be there to help him but I know he understands. Cameron offered to hire movers for him but Tony was adamant about taking care of things on his own.

We walk over to the kitchen and I sit at the island table and watch as he prepares pancakes, eggs and bacon. My favorite breakfast meal. I chew at my bottom lip as I allow my eyes to wander across his body, God he still makes me go so crazy for him.

He turns at that moment and our eyes meet. My cheeks heat up immediately, he still has that effect on me. He raises an eyebrow at me and I shrug, unashamed at being caught checking out the man who has always had my heart. He gives me that half smile that can make my heart skip beats before grabbing the eggs and turning back to the stove.

I keep watching him until the food is all ready, I couldn't stop myself from watching him.

We eat together and steal glances at each other often. I think I want to rekindle our relationship, I think I'm ready to forgive him and move forward. When I look into the future now I see him by my side. I finish eating and look at Cameron who stares back at me.

"What is it?" He asks me softly and he grabs my hand and intertwines our fingers. I look down at our hands and he raises them to his lips, pressing a gentle kiss that gives me butterflies.

I'm definitely ready.

"I'm ready, Cameron." I tell him and he looks hopefully at me, I nod to confirm it is what he's thinking about.

He lets out a shaky breath and then leans in and brushes his lips over my cheek.

"Oh god, thank you so much baby. I promise to love and cherish you always, I'll never make that mistake again. I swear it." He murmurs as presses his lips against mine, I open up immediately and enjoy his kiss again. I missed his lips so much, I want to move slow though but for now these kisses are exactly what I need.

"I want us to start fresh. You broke me, Cam... in a way I didn't even know I could be broken. But I healed and I grew, I've matured. I'm not entirely sure the previous iteration of our relationship was even meant to last. Things were so... unbalanced, I held you to this impossible standard, I thought you were perfect and obviously no one is perfect. I'm not excusing what you did, it was the worst thing you could have ever done to me but I know we can move forward. I'm not saying that we need to forget what happened or pretend it didn't happen, I'm just ready to be happy and I'm not going to allow the past to live with me in the present. I've learned from it and I know you have to, we can use those lessons to create a more balanced relationship." I explain to him quietly, he looks at me intently and I know he's really taking in what I've told him.