Famous // Luke Hemmings

Back At It Again

*Macky's POV*

I stood a microphone after we did a few songs. The crowd was crazy. 65,000 people were here to see us. I smiled and waved, there was a fan project with papers that say '#WelcomeBackMackenzie #WeLoveYouMacky', there were all kinds of signs and projects here.

The lights dimmed and a stool and piano was brought up for me and the acoustic guitar on a stand next to me. "Hey, it's been a while. I really just need everyone to just sit down and be quiet, I really need to talk to you guys. There's some things that happened for as long as I could remember and it sucks. The problem is keeping it all in and it takes over your life. Once in about 10 years I properly talked about it, this like point five. Everyone has problems at home that no one sees, you have to find yourself a support system. If you don't you lose who you are as a person and that happened to me. The past three weeks I spent home with people that kept me grounded, away from fans, and feel normal like myself. I was able to be anyone with having to worry.
So I wrote about three songs about it."

Fans started screaming like crazy and I just waited. "Quiet or we aren't playing it. You guys need to be quiet because this is really important to us and we want you to hear it" Ashton said.

I just sighed and put the piano to the side, Calum grabbed the stool and put near the piano. I'm just not going to play it. I got some water and we huddled near the drums. "Just continue the set, What I like About You and Disconnected" Calum said. Ashton started the intro and I watched him.

"So we aren't playing the songs cause owe got frustrated with the noise. So here we go!" Luke said.

We played a few more songs and talked with fans about random stuff. I was bothered that I didn't get to talk about what was going on. In a room full of fans, it makes me feel like my problems aren't important and matter. Feels like there only here for the music.

We played a few more songs and messed around on stage. I sat down next to Luke on the stage prop Ashton's drums were on. Luke smiled at me all toothy and funny, I started laughing at him nonstop since he kept making the face. Luke or any of my friends always knew how to change my mood.

"I drove by all the places we used to hang out getting wasted
I thought about our last kiss, how it felt, the way you tasted
And even though your friends tell me you're doing fine" Calum sang as the lights dimmed down on him. We sat closer together while Calum sang Amnesia solo. We watched him and played our guitars softly.

Luke got up to sing his part and turned to face me a little bit with a smile "Are you somewhere feeling lonely even though he's right beside you?
When he says those words that hurt you, do you read the ones I wrote you?"

Sometimes I start to wonder, was it just a lie?
If what we had was real, how could you be fine?

'Cause I'm not fine at all" I sang looking into the crowd.

"I remember the day you told me you were leaving
I remember the tears running down your face
And the dreams you left behind you didn't need them
Like every single wish we ever made
I wish that I could wake up with amnesia
And forget about the stupid little things
Like the way it felt to fall asleep next to you
And the memories I never can escape

'Cause I'm not fine at all" I could feel like just looking at me the whole time and I couldn't face him. I could picture a sad look on his face, tears ready to fall, and just a look that kills me everytime.

"The pictures that you sent me they're still living in my phone
I'll admit I like to see them, I'll admit I feel alone
And all my friends keep asking why I'm not around

It hurts to know you're happy, yeah, it hurts that you've moved on
It's hard to hear your name when I haven't seen you in so long" Luke sang. I stood next to Calum playing, a tear dropped from my eyes. I whipped it and headed to my microphone.

I took in a deep breath and let it out as I sang into the microphone "It's like we never happened, was it just a lie?
If what we had was real, how could you be fine?

'Cause I'm not fine at all" As much as possible I tried not to face or look at Luke, but it's impossible.

I stepped away and Calum started singing again "I remember the day you told me you were leaving
I remember the tears running down your face
And the dreams you left behind you didn't need them
Like every single wish we ever made
I wish that I could wake up with amnesia
And forget about the stupid little things
Like the way it felt to fall asleep next to you
And the memories I never can escape

If today I woke up with you right beside me
Like all of this was just some twisted dream
I'd hold you closer than I ever did before
And you'd never slip away
And you'd never hear me say"

I moved my guitar and held the microphone in my hands as Luke and I sang together "I remember the day you told me you were leaving
I remember the tears running down your face
And the dreams you left behind you didn't need them
Like every single wish we ever made
I wish that I could wake up with amnesia
And forget about the stupid little things
Like the way it felt to fall asleep next to you
And the memories I never can escape" I accidentally got one look at Luke and tears were falling from his eyes. Oh god.

" 'Cause I'm not fine at all
No, I'm really not fine at all
Tell me this is just a dream
'Cause I'm really not fine at all" we finished the song and everyone was clapping as our show ended.

We went up and bowed to the crowd and headed backstage. I walked over to the couch and stared at the wall. Not that bad for first day back from break.