Famous // Luke Hemmings

I can't

*Shawn's POV*

It's been four days and Macky has been passed out the whole entire time. My family left to go back home and plus Aaliyah has school still. I'm going crazy here. Macky, just wake up. There's stories about Macky all over the media about being in the hospital, it's even been on the news a couple time and talk shows.

Luke on the other hand just stares at the monitor most of the time waiting for something to happen. "Aye, mate. We have to go now, we need to meet with our manager about this whole situation. We'll be back in about three hours, can you make sure Luke doesn't go crazy?" Calum said to me.

I nodded and gave him a man hug, then Calum and Ashton left. Macky's doctors came in and gave her a check up, they did an eye exam and backed away quickly. "Her eye just moved!" Dr. Grey yelled. The other doctors came over getting a look.

Luke's eyes went wide and he held her hand. "Come on babe, open your eyes" he cried.

I watched and her eyes slowly opened up and she stared at us after blinking a few times. "Can you tell us your name? Birthday? Who these two men are?" Dr. Grey said giving her water. "Take your time."

"Uhmm, Mackenzie McCoy. September 13, 1996. My Nan, Brooklyn, Dylan, Shawn, and Luke" I said. I saw tears fall from her eyes and Luke wiped it "Why?"

I furrowed my eyebrows. What? "What do you mean?"

"I wasn't dreaming" her voice cracked and tears fell. I backed away and I looked at everyone. "I wanted to die!"

Luke started crying and his head fell on the bed. "Admit her to psychology. Don't tell anyone keep it to yourself, Yang" Dr. Shepard said. "I'm going to have you all wait in the other room" we all left leaving it to the doctors.

From the room we could hear her yelling and screaming at the doctors, then it was quiet.

*Macky's POV*

Why am I alive? I don't deserve this. I'm just a burden and ruining other people. The doctor gave me a shot to make me relax and shut up. I stared up at the ceiling as tears fell from my face "Now, can you tell me why you took the pills and drowned yourself in the tub?"

"I wanted to die" I said bluntly.

"Why?"

"Because! I can't handle all this pain! The stress and the attention is too much for me. I'm suppose to be traveling the world playing soccer and hockey. I'm suppose to be going to college, but I dropped out."

The therapist sighed "Killing yourself was the answer?"

"It's suppose to stop the pain."

"No, killing yourself ends your life."

"What if that's what I wanted!?"

The therapist looked at me and sighed. I gave her a blank look "Millions of people look up to you. Your family is right outside this door crying their eyes out for you. You're not just ending your life, you're breaking hope for the people that cares for you."

I just shrugged "It's not like I actually know those millions of people. I don't owe them anything, they don't even really know me. It's not like they care about how I feel, it's all about doing things for them. Take pictures, release songs, your months on end and not see my family." I could careless about fans, we're all people.

"So that's why you tried to kill yourself? You feel that no one cares for you, you wanted the real attention?"

I groaned "Did you not get what I said!? I'm done with this! I don't want to be famous! I wanna be back in Sydney! Be at school playing soccer and hockey. That's my life, not this!"

The therapist stood up and nodded "Okay. I think you just found the better answer. Do what you just said? Go home, go back to school, play hockey and soccer."

*Luke's POV*

I stared at the ground just rethinking everything that happened these past few hours. Macky just wanted to die, just like that she tried to kill herself. After the therapist left the room, we went back in when Ashton and Calum came back.

I walked into the room and Macky looked so lifeless. No sparkles in her eyes. All the bad vibes coming from her. We surrounded the bed and she sighed "I'm quitting the band." She was so blunt, straight to the point.

We we're quiet and staring at the bed "Why?"

"Because I want to be a person, not a zoo animal. I'm stupid and the knowledge of a year 10. I just can't keep dealing with all this, drama, fighting with you Luke, Arzaylea, and just life. I wanna watch my siblings grow up, I want to be there when they need me not just a call."

They sighed and I backed away from her. My chest felt heavy. Shawn let out a deep breath "What about the Billboard Awards? We were suppose to have our first big performance, all of us. What about that?"

Jacey didn't respond to us. I looked up at her and held her hand tight "What about me?" I asked.

At that point, Jacey looked at me and tears just rolled down her cheeks "I love you, Luke. I'll always love the both of you, no matter what. I just want to be normal, a teenager."

I nodded and kissed her "I love you." I stared at her and held her close "I don't ever want to loose you. Please don't do this again, I don't know what to do without you."

Shawn sat on the other side and held Jacey's other hand. "You're my best friend, I can't loose you. Life is meaningless without you" he said softly. He still loves her ever after all this time.

"I'm sorry.... I don't know what to do anymore" Jacey whispered.

Shawn pushed her hair back "We'll help you."