The Way (A Harry Styles Fan Fiction)

Chapter 21

My heart must be on the floor. My whole body feels numb and I can't comprehend the words I just read. I slump to a small pile beside the bed, taking Harry's phone with me. I continue to read the messages over and over while the tears stream down my face.

I feel betrayed. Has he been sleeping with her this whole time? Is that why he dosen't care if I have sex with him or not?

I place the phone back on the table locking the screen. How could I have been so stupid to think he actually cares about me? Everything he has said to me has been a lie. He dosen't need me. He just needs someone to fuck and that obviously isn't me.

The tears continue to fall and my breathing is getting harsher. The timing of this could not have been any more perfect.

I just had one of the most intimate experiences with someone, ever. And this is how I'm going to remeber it. Sitting on the floor crying while my heart has been torn to pieces.

"Make me feel good. Xxx"

"And I'm not begging this time."

The words keep playing in my mind. This time? How many times has there been?

The guilt I was feeling earlier has now been tripled. He isn't my boyfriend. He is hardly even my friend and I let him do...that to me.

Fuck if this dosen't hurt.

I need to leave. This large room now seems extremly small, suffocating me. I get my self up from the floor, and walk over to my phone still sitting on the bed. I quickly dial Jamie's number and she answers on the 3rd ring.

"Hello!" She sounds happy when she answers.

"Hey. Can you pick me up? I don't have enough money on me to call a cab." I mutter into the receiver trying to hold back my sobs.

"Of course. Where are you? What's wrong? Are you okay?" She asks, bombarding me with questions.

"I'm at Harry's appartment. Do you know where that is?" I say as the tears start to fall once again. I don't have the strength to answer any of her other questions.

"Yes. But Alex what's wrong? What did he do to you?"

"Not now, Jamie. How long untill you get here?" The words rush out of my mouth.

"About 10 minutes, I'm already out."

"Okay. I will be outside. Thanks." I say and hang up before she has time to answer.

I haven't thought about how I'm going to explain this to Jamie. She knows Harry pretty well so maybe she can help me.

I grab my bag and purse from the corner of the room and push them onto my shoulder. As I turn back towards the door of Harry's bedroom I hear the elevator ping.

Shit.

My body freezes and I am unable to move. Seconds later Harry walks into the room and his face turns to a worried expression as he takes in my red swollen eyes.

"Alex. What- what's wrong?" The words tumble from his mouth.

He starts to walk closer to me but I hold out my hand telling him to stop. His eyes travel down to my bags and I think he realizes my intentions.

"Are you leaving?" His voice cracks.

"Yes."

"Why? Because of what we just did? I don't understand. I thought you were fine?" He rushes the words out of his mouth, and I can hear the hurt in his voice.

He does not deserve my pitty.

Before I can respond Harry's phone dings once more, but he dosen't even look over at the device. Instead his eyes are locked on me.