Heartbeats

Chapter-six

I woke up startled unsure of where I was, that wasn't my main concern though I saw a nurse walk past the room I was in and then realised that the walls were all fabric what was going on where was I and why did it feel so cold in here I couldn't stop looking round the room why was I here where was this place and why did all the nurses look like they didn't even know I was here. I started shouting "WHATS GOING ON WHY AM I HERE, SOMEONE HELP ME PLEASE" my dad walked in and slammed me down on the bed he screamed at me, "SHUT YOUR MOUTH OR I'LL KILL YOU" I started crying the pain was excruciating and he continued to tower over me he pulled a pair of handcuffs out from his back pocket and handcuffed me to the bed, before getting up and pulling the blind down on the window.

He started coming towards me I didn't know what to do my legs and ribs were broken and I was handcuffed to my bed there was really nothing I could do he truly terrified me it seemed that my father had not changed after all sometimes I used to think about him as a loving caring father who had always been there for me I knew for a fact now that it was just that a dream a hopeless dream that would never be true and that's what scared me the most. Soon he arrived at my bed, I had no way of escape the only thing that could've possibly helped me was my voice and the room was soundproof I had little time to plan my actions and he was coming down on me quickly all I could do was hope that his actions didn't shock my body into death. He surprised me by what he did next instead of doing what I thought he was going to do he lifted himself up picked up the chair he had brought in with him and moved it next to my bed.

He started talking and I couldn't hear half of it due to the great weeping sobs I was letting out as the tears ran down my face as if they were running a marathon, but not like normal tears they weren't from sadness, they were from fear of losing every little thing I had. I heard bits and pieces of what he was saying but the sentence that he was currently saying broke my heart, "as much as you think Jake loves you and always will you're not his girlfriend and if my plan goes the way it's meant to you'll be too ashamed to be anyone's girlfriend, so look forward to your single life cause it's all you'll ever get, apart from what I do to you right now". He started pacing round the room as he spoke almost as if he was scared of what he was about to do to me, his voice sounded like it was slowly shattering as he said " you don't even remember my name do you?, well just in case you were still wondering its Tony". "And I'm not who you think I am" I think even after everything I had been through those were the words that shocked me the most, who was he and why was he here, was he my dad did he think I thought he was someone else is that why he said that, or was he someone else completely different. soon he did it I had expected it to be more painful but I just reached for the side of the bed before he did anything, there were pain pills sitting next to my bed I took a breath before I did what I did next I quietly said I love you Jake and poured them in my mouth I saw what he was doing to me the pills couldn't be used to overdose and he knew that, he started off slowly and then dot faster and faster I tried to move away but he just held my hands down causing the handcuffs to tear into my skin.

I was bleeding all over when the nurses finally found me I was barely conscious they could see the empty pill packet lying on the floor they were attempting to guess what had happened but couldn't, the handcuffs were no longer there and this man who I thought was my father was long gone. They all tried asking me but soon I fell asleep without the intention of talking again ever, before I had fell asleep the nurses bandaged me up across the stomach, legs again and arms I had cuts all over my body not just the ones I had caused when I self-harmed but fresh ones oozing blood I was moved to a high security room as the nurses weren't sure whether I had done this to myself or someone else had done this to me a security guard was placed outside the room. I no longer saw the point of living that was until Jake saw me the day I was found I felt like everything good about me was now gone that was until he saw me, everything that had happened to me couldn't be fixed only some could and that had to be done by surgery and surgery was expensive I had decided to skip the surgery when he came in, he said to me "no if you don't have enough money to pay for the surgery I will". He grabbed the nurse that was walking out and said put my name down as the person paying for London's surgery I tried to protest but as always Jake won persuading both me and the nurse no matter how much it was it was worth paying.

I went into surgery knowing that the money was slowly building up to the thousands money I didn't have, I came out of surgery with thoughts of how I could get that money without having to ask Jake, flowing through my head. An hour after surgery I was waking up from a long nap, apparently Jake had been given permission to sit with me when I got out of the surgery he saw that I was waking up and came close to the bed I didn't know what he was thinking and apparently he didn't either he whispered in my ear " I love you London hill, and no matter how much you try to drive me away I always will even when you don't think I do or don't want me to I still will there is nothing you can do to change that". His mouth went from my ear down my neck showering me with small kisses I tried to feign being asleep but the longing was too tempting I lifted myself up from the bed and decided that I was no longer going to be the shadow of everyone else, it was time for me to be happy what's the worst that could happen I mean yeah sure if I lost happiness my whole world would probably crash but that was in the future and this was the present. I moved his mouth on to my lips and that's when it happened my first kiss, I hadn't expected to have it this way that was on a hospital bed with most me of me broken or cut up but it didn't make me any less satisfied. It was everything I wanted and even though it might not have been Jakes first kiss I could feel the emotion flowing through him as if he wished I was his first kiss.

He pulled back "what's wrong", was I doing something wrong did he not like it I tried to pull him back to me but he resisted " somethings wrong and I don't mean the making out session that's awesome". "but your looking round the room as if you expect someone to come in as if were being watched what's wrong", am I not good do you want to stop your sending me mixed messages I pay for a 3000 dollar surgery and you couldn't even say thank you, even at your worst you're not even like this, you didn't even speak to me you just shook your head and went back to your attempt at sleep". I stayed silent he looked at me with disappointment almost anger, he got up off the bed and started walking towards the door just before he left, I started to cry silently he turned round to look at me before he left and saw the tears running down my face he almost fell over trying to get me I thought he was going to comfort me like a normal whatever we were but instead he did the unthinkable was he truly like my dad, he grabbed onto my shaking hands and instead of whispering the three words that made my body tingle he whispered "what's wrong with you", the hurt in his eyes made it impossible to look at him, soon he tried looking into my eyes he started talking me but all I could here was what the supposed person who was my dad was saying I couldn't bear it I screamed at him.

He stormed out of the room once I'd finished my story I tried to yell after him but it was clear he was determined to go somewhere.

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