Heartbeats

Chapter-seven

 He started to cry, I tried to keep my tears in but it seemed like I was used to letting the tears out. By now I wanted to cry on his shoulder but it was clear that he was the one who needed a shoulder to cry on.

He rested his head on my lap and we lay on my hospital bed not doing anything but just lying next to each other. I listened to my heart and he listened to my heart, he was the one that kept my heartbeat going, the one who let me listen to the thump thump thump as my heart raced up and down then calm down. It was so simple but so beautiful, a sound that had been created by a horrific event had turned into a beautiful song.

He still loved me even after all I'd done to him and put him through he got up off the bed and said he needed to go talk to someone. I was left to my own thoughts; everything was still rushing through my head, that's when it happened.

I got up off my bed and hopped into the wheel chair they had left next to my bed, I rolled myself out of my room and to the front desk where I asked where my supposed dad was meant to be, they gave me directions. My heart had never beaten so fast, I moved as fast as I could in the directions I'd been given, I spotted Jake, he was yelling at Tony, I couldn't deal with this anymore.

I shouted "go get FUCKED tony!" everyone turned to face me. No one actually knew his name but me; I got out of my wheelchair and used all the strength I had. I ended up landing such a blow that I fell backwards, but not before Jake could catch me. I wasn't the only one who fell though; the only difference is that no one helped Tony. He got up and started wiping blood from his lip.

Just before I thought he was going to leave he came over and punched my face so hard that blood was pouring out of my mouth, I felt like I couldn't breathe. The nurses were too scared to do anything and Jake supported me as he walked out. It's like sadness and fear were the only emotions I could feel now I heard Jake say something but I wasn't sure whether I'd heard him right I asked him to repeat what he said and he said "In the end you always go back to the people that were there in the beginning" How could I be sure whether he was talking about himself or other people "What do you mean?" I said while spitting out blood and teeth. "Rest my dear Londs", I gently lifted my head up to his ear and whispered "how to murder someone tell them you love them and then never talk to them again" I then shut my eyes and drifted off before he had a chance to reply.

I woke up and found myself in a house I had never seen before I was about to freak out but I looked around and saw Jake I wanted to rush over and give him a hug he went to walk away I remembered what I had said to him before he could leave I pleaded "it gets worst at night when I'm alone". He turned his back and continued to walk out of the room I called after him in an last attempt to get his attention, If I'm in your house then you love me and I won't regret what I have to say next, but if this is someone's house you won't ever have to see me again, I love you and that won't' ever change" we both gasped he ran to me and lifted me up from my bed it's my house he whispered in my ear. "And that's why I'm allowed to do this".

"Room service", he called letting out a soft pure laugh as he spotted the surprised look on my face, "What you're all broken I can't break you even more". I felt my mouth curve in the slightest and realised I had a soft smile on my face; he cupped my face in his hand and used his other hand to trace my mouth forming the smile I had on my face, I loved the feeling of his soft warm fingers I gave in letting my face sink into his hands he brought my head to his chest and I felt the warmth of his chest and tried my best to listen to his heart, soon a small head popped in his little sister Anneliese left out a small laugh at the sight of us in the positions we were in. His older sister Anastasia popped her head round the corner she started clucking her tongue as if she was Jakes mum and said in a mocking tone, "what have you done now London?", I replied with a "I don't know you tell me nurse I'm pretty sure the concussion has made me forget. "Wait what" she sounded worried, "really?" no I'm fine it's ok ha ha ha I let out a gentle laugh. His mum was the next one to enter the room and we all loved when she came skipping in with a hot pizza, Jakes dad was the last one it looked like he had a bag of burgers from burger edge but I couldn't be certain. "I told room service not to bother I thought it would be way more special for London if she had some basic take out besides she has the rest if her life to order room service. He tossed my bag over to me and said "Jake, told me chunky chips and the Bombay bash were your favourite I smiled at the fact in the little time me and Jake knew each other he knew nearly everything about me I went to unwrap my burger and realised there was something different about the wrapping there was small writing I went to turn the paper over and read it when I heard, Cole, Jakes dad say to Anneliese are we really going to try this again, try what dad?.

She was good she pulled a totally innocent face now what is this I wonder I went to look at the paper again when Jake saved me the drama, and just told me what it was "its adoption paperwork Anneliese here has been trying to slip it into you all week", I sat silently and finally said "well Anneliese I don't know what to say I guess to start I'm sorry, I love your family I really do but what you saw before that wasn't brotherly and sisterly love that was me loving your brother Jake and as hard as this may be to understand but I'm not ready to give up on that, not if it means I lose you as an awesome friend and your brother". I didn't know what else to say to her it seemed like she understood but on the other hand she also looked like she had just taken a bullet straight through the heart, Cole looked over at Anneliese with concern then realised what I had been saying before "wait what do you mean what do you see before Anneliese?". Anneliese started to giggle forgetting what she heard before and laughed as she said "London was leaning on Jake's chest as he tickled her tummy" she burst out into giggles after that and we all started to laugh with her.

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