E.X.ing (Luhan Fanfic)

Talking

Right at 6 in the morning, Lixian wakes up from her sleep because her alarm keeps ringing right on her ear. A low hiss comes from her lips, all because she still feels sleepy. Last night she barely sleeps because Luhan keeps running inside her head, like he was trapped there.

"No, no, Lixian, wake up! Stop dreaming" She hits her head softly as she tries to get her sense back. She knows this euphoria will disappear tomorrow, when they separate their way again. But her little heart keeps telling her 'it might lead them to a new relationship'. But fuck, they won't make it, right?

It makes her feel all frustrated and depressed at the same time. One side, she wants to let this flow, enjoying their time together in this short time periode, hoping it will work somehow. And the other side, she knows, all feel so wrong, too dellusional, too fictional. But she saw something last night, on his eyes. Something magical called love.

Time froze for both of them, noone tried to talk, noone tried to move. Both stood on their place, having no desire to let go their hands. The old memories were hitting their heart, fast and hard, gave them no chance to escape.

"Your little hand still looks so fragile, even after years" Luhan talked. Nothing came up from Lixian's lips, she kept staring at their tangled hands. Yes, her hand looked so fragile around his, but this reminded her about the past. Luhan really liked the reality about how fragile she was, therefore he could protect her and became her only knight.

"Although it's freezing tonight, can you please stay for a while?" Luhan continued, he changed his mind, he didn't want her to go inside and leave him alone.

"Han----"

"If you stay, I promise you, I will make you warm" He kept talking because he really wanted her to stay.

No words from her plum lips, she just lifted her chin up slowly, started making an eye-contact with him. A little surprise reflected on her face, and mostly on her eyes. She saw something soft and warm on his eyes, the look that she missed the most, the gaze that she wished to see again. It was the look that he always gave her everytime he tried to kiss her, the look that he always gave everytime he tried to show her what's inside his heart. That look was full of love.

"Stay with me, huh?" Luhan asked her again because she was in a deep silence.

Lixian was taken aback by his action and his words. She was more taken aback by his stare. Was it true? Or was it just her hallucination? She was so confused, she couldn't differentiate the real and the unreal.

"I'm freezing" Lixian talked as she pulled her hand away from him.

She planned to walk away from him because her heart and her mind were in chaos. All attacked her at once and she wasn't ready for this. But when she turned around, he grabbed her wrist and pulled her into his warm embrace. There, her heart skipped a beat. There, she held her breath. There, the time stopped for them.

"Warmer?" He asked her. His hand wrapped her body tightly, giving her warmth and comfort. Slowly, her eyes fluttered closed. She gave no answer but she snuggled to his embrace. For a while, just for a while, she wanted to stay in his embrace, just like the old times.

***

Lixian stays inside her room all day long, she just comes out for eating. She really wants to avoid Luhan so bad. She doesn't want to meet him, or to talk to him. This because she realizes, last night was a dream, but today, in the end of the day, she will get hurt.

Last night, Luhan brought her up to the sky, but today, she doesn't know what will happen. It's between two options: Luhan will catch her when falling, safe her from a severe pain, or he will just watch her falling, let her break into pieces. For Lixian, rather than waiting for the uncertainty, she better goes down by herself while the ground's still reachable.