E.X.ing (Luhan Fanfic)

Leaving

'So the rumor was right, I read the article about you and your ex. She is way more beautiful than me and now I realize why you dumped me. Luhan, you can ignore me, but you can't ignore our son'

Every single word is hurting her heart. This reality is too much for her heart and her feeling. She feels like she gets a heart attack, can't feel the heart beat, slowly hard to breath. This is suffocating, torturing every pieces of her broken heart. No tears leave her eyes, maybe because she has no tears left, or maybe she's too tired to cry.

Once again, she reads the message, reassuring if she reads it right. Another wave of disappointment strikes her heart, she's very sure she read it right, Luhan has a son with that girl named Jia. Lixian stares blankly at his phone as she thinks about all of this: how could it happen? and when?

She needs a lot of explanation from Luhan. What did he do with her if he has a son? Why did he come to her if he has a girl named Jia? What is his purpose?

"Okay, calm down, Lixian" She talks as she closes her eyes, taking a deep breath.

"Calm down---" Suddenly she chokes on her words, hiccuping as her tears flowing down her face. The invisible scar felt hurt, she's not bleeding but she feels a great pain. It's tearing her apart, causing her to lose her soul. She can't think properly, her brain stops working, she completely loses her mind. She's crying loudly, half-screaming, hoping the pain will gone away.

"Xian, what happened?"

It was Luhan. Her loud cry woke him up, and he immediately came for her. He is now pulling her into his warm embrace, right after that, her cry turns louder.

"Hey, what happened?" He asks once again, feeling all worry and panic.

"Ha- Han, I- I didn't mean to----" She can't talk properly because she's sobbing so hard. She starts feeling dizzy, her head hurts because of the intense cry.

"Ssssst, just calm down first" Luhan whispers softly to her as he pats her back, comforting Lixian.

Moments pass, slowly she starts breathing normally, no sounds just a low sob. Luhan hugs her tightly and his hand strokes her hair. He knows her so well, he always did this to calm her down.

"Now, will you tell me?" Luhan asks.

"Han---" Lixian pauses as she rests her head on his chest. Truthfully, she just wants to forget about that message and continues the lovey-dovey moment with him. She wants acting like a stupid and accepting everything because she is too blind right now, she is too in love with him. But agin, she can't ignore it easily, it lingers inside her heart.

"Who is Jia?" Lixian starts raising her tone, she can't control her emotion, she just extremely turns nuts because of the truth.

"How---" He pauses, breaking the eye-contact between them, panic all over his face. He can't fix his gaze, he is taken aback by this.

In the other hand, Lixian witnesses everything and she starts making her own conclusion. He looks so panic and nervous right now, she knows something happened between that two. This breaks her heart again, until she thought she will die because of broken heart.

"Xian" Luhan starts sulking, like he wants to get away from this problem.

"How old is your son?" Lixian's question gives him a heart attack. His eyes immediately fixed on hers, staring deeply to her eyes, just to find pain and sadness. For a moment, they keep quiet and look into each other, trying hard to read what's inside.

"Listen------"

Luhan's phone rings suddenly, cutting down his explanation to her. Lixian looks down to her hand, staring into his phone. Jia, that name again. She really wants to throw that phone and step on it until it broke, she doesn't want him to accept her call.