E.X.ing (Luhan Fanfic)

Hugging

The sun goes down and the sky slowly turns dark, one by one, stars appear and twinkle prettily on the night sky. It has been hours since Luhan left but there is no sign he will return soon. This makes Lixian worry and nervous. What is he doing? Why is he still there? She is very sure, he told her he will bring her somewhere, the place that she misses the most, but where is he now?

Feeling desperate of waiting him, she decides to change into her night gown, giving up to wait. The night sounds so quiet and it just makes her feel more lonely. She knows something happened between Luhan and Jia, it's positive, but she starts distracting her thought and trying to fall asleep.

As she tries harder, the image of Luhan and that girl doing something she denied is going stronger. Her heart beats so fast, giving her an uneasy feeling, this hurts her so bad. Tears threatening to fall, but she holds it. She closes her eyes really tight, because she thinks when the eyes closed, the tears won't fall down. For a moment, her theory was right, but it didn't last long, cause suddenly the tears stream down her face.

It's a kind of a very painful cry, where you have tears streaming down your face but you cry in silent, because no matter how loud you cry, the pain will always there, sticking inside your heart, refusing to gone away. This is the worst, she now lays down on his bed, his scent lingers and the memories with him come striking her hard.

Here, on his bed, they were making love for the first time. They really had a beautiful moment, where they felt love and trust from and to each other. Back then, they believed they will end up together, having a nice marriage, having two sons and one daughter, and having a great family together. Lixian lives for their dreams, she really believes, someday, somehow their dreams will come true. But that was before, when Jia wasn't on the picture with them, but now is different, she is on the picture with them, and the worst part is she places herself between Luhan and Lixian.

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Walking straight to his bedroom, he feels a slight dizziness because the effect of whatever drugs Jia put on his coffee. He feels lifeless, he feels nothing at first, but when he enters his bedroom and finds a sleeping Lixian there, he gets a hard pang, leaving him in the deep pain that he didn't feel before.

He walks to the bathroom and locks himself there, because he couldn't even look at her, he feels guilty and sorry for Lixian. Nothing leaves his lips except a deep sigh, slowly, he stands under the shower, switching it on. He lets the water pouring on him, hoping the sin will wash away with the water.

"I'm sorry" Luhan whispers softly as he closes his eyes. Without his realization, he drops his tears and cries as he recalls what just happened to him that will affect his relationship with Lixian.

Between the dizziness, Luhan tried to open his eyes. But right after he got a clear sight, he regretted it. Beside him, Jia was laying and smiling wickedly to him. Nothing covered up her body, and so did his body. He didn't need to ask to know, it was clear that Jia was doing something to his body, taking advantages while he was unconscious.

"Having a nice dream?" She asked.

Luhan was in a deep silence, staring at her with his cold gaze. He couldn't believe, he was so stupid, having no thought about this scenario. He just thought Jia already turned into a nice girl, but that was his mistake. He shouldn't think that way in the first place. Now they already did the sin, and he couldn't turn back time. He was in a deep regret.

Luhan was ignoring every single word that left her mouth. He was in a hurry, he needed to come back and see Lixian. Right after he was done taking his clothes on, Jia opened up her mouth, giving him worries.