E.X.ing (Luhan Fanfic)

Hitting

"Who are you?"

Nothing, his mind goes blank after he heard her question. His only one love, Lixian, she couldn't recognize him. Without even asking, he already knows what happened to her. All is too obvious and this makes him weak. His heart couldn't take this.

"Hey, it's me" Luhan talks in his cracking voice, hoping she will get back what she lost.

"Who? You know me?" She asks. Her voice is still sweet as always, but her gaze isn't warm anymore, her gaze is more confused.

"I know you----" He pauses and stares deep into her eyes, but all he got is pain.

"You're Lixian" He continues as he takes her hand, trying to hold it but she avoids it.

"Who are you? What relationship we have?" She raises her tone, feeling frustrated because nothing she could remember. She starts to breath heavily because she feels so lost. Trying so hard to remember a thing but there is just a pitch black.

"We---" He chokes, doesn't know what to say. He doesn't know what relationship they have right now, are they still lover? Or maybe just a stranger with million memories?

"What happened to me? Why can't I remember even a single thing?" She then starts yelling, tears brimming on her eyes, ready to fall anytime.

"Why can't I remember about myself?" She continues, tears start flowing down her face, because she feels scared about this whole strange world. She then turns her face to Luhan, hoping she will get any answer or clue, but she just lost once again on his eyes. It's strange for her, but she feels like she's home.

***

Luhan sits in silence, staring into a sleeping Lixian. Lixian lost her memories, that was what the doctor said. He doesn't know what to feel, he feels empty right now. The memories that they shared together before, now shattered into pieces. As she lost her memories, he lost his mind.

"What will happen to us after this?" He asks her.

"If you never got back your memories, I think I will never forgive myself" He hiccups as he bites his lips. This thought, about her never getting back her memories, is killing him.

"If only I treated you right, this wouldn't happen" He continues, a single tears leaves his eyes, showing what's inside his heart.

"I'm so sorry, I should've give you happiness but I just stupidly turn it into a tragedy" There, he cries out once again, he wants to let go of the sadness but it keeps sticking on his heart, giving him a severe pain. Yes, he knows, he deserves to feel all this pain, but he still hopes, this pain will go away somehow.

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Luhan's POV

I always think about this question: when will she get back her memories? Maybe in an hour, maybe in one day, or one week, or one month, noone ever knows about this. One thing that I know, I could keep waiting and waiting until she calls my name in a warm way again.

I know I ask for too much, I know I should be thankful for all this blessing. That day when I showed her our pictures together, she immediately trusted me and agreed to come home with me. Actually it's enough for me who is a jerk to her, but still, I want more, I want her back.

I always tell her a story about our memories before we go to bed. I always hope, after I deliver the story, she will remember even a pieces of our memories, but always nothing. I keep telling her, and she keeps listening to me. But this brings us to nothing. One day, one week, one month, up until now, it's already half a year. I start to think about giving up but then I remember the reason why I did this. I want her back because I need to give her my love. She deserves it.