There is no way out.The urge is too strong. Im terrified whats going to happen to my unwanted soul. Heaven or hell? Life or death? I am having a war with my demons and I'm loosing. I am shriveling away and you are not there to help me threw my time of pain. They are killing me and convincing me that the reason the world is unhappy is my fault, I'm the cause of my dad's death and the reason that my family is so horrible. Maybe just maybe without my hopeless soul and unwanted body the world will be happy and everything would be just..... Right. I'm a fuck up, a useless piece of garbage. I'm better off dead, no more unneeded pain and no more blame.
