I Need You ( A Jikook angst fanficiton)

Chapter 4

Jimins POV

"You can't leave Jimin. I'm really sorry!" our manager said to me and hung up. He did sound sad and concert.
I'm sitting on our bathroom floor leaning against the bathtub. I ran home directly after the call. Nobody was home, they all went out because it is our free day and they do this all the time. I feel a little hurt since they didn't even get me to go with them. We always did that. See they don't care anymore! I feel betrayed. I thought that they are my friends, my family and that they love me.
Nobody loves you! Why would you even think that? You are worthless and an borden. The fans hate you and the members don't like you at all.
The voice says. "No" I whisper and cut my wrist for the first time. "Why? Why I am like this and not like the other members?" I cut again. I start to cry and feel the water falling down the bathtub. Ohh yeah...I wanted to take a bath. I start to sob. Why can't I do anything right? I can't sing, can't dance and I make my members sad. I even made Suga Hyung sad!
I continue cutting myself and I don't care how deep. Should I end this?
"Jimin? Are you in there? We are back! Hey! Why did you lock the door? You never did this before? Are you ok?" I hear Jin Hyung before the door. I jump up, why are they already back????
"Hyu u ung?" I stutter. Oh really Jimin???? I'm so weak.
"Are you ok? You don't sound good. Did something happen or are you ill???" Jin hyung sounds so comcerned. I need to clean everything and change clothes. I look around but can't find anything. I'm REALLY SO DUMB! I forgot my clothes.
See! You are even to dumb to get yourself clothes!
"No! I just took a shower and forgot my clothes. Could you maybe bring me some? With a sweater? It's really cold." I lie. I hold my breath and pray that he believes me.
"Ok! Wait a second!" I hear him leaving. I breath out. That was so close. I hurry up and clean my 'work' and stop the water of the bathtub. I look around. I made a really big mess. I clean the water up. Yeah...I don't want to be killed by Eomma Jin!
Someone knocks on the door. I unlock it and it is suddenly thrown open. I fell down shocked and look up when the door is closed again. My eyes widen when I see Suga hyung standing there with an angry expression.
"Here. Jin gave me this!" He throws my clothes at me. I take them slowly and only sit there.
He knows it...he knows my secret. He will tell the others. They will hate me! They will be disgusted.
They already hate you and find you disgusting !
I struggle and don't know what I should do. I feel tears streaming down my face.
"Jimin?" I look up to Suga hyung, scared out of my mind. He looks concerned and guilty. He takes a step toward me.
"No! Stop, please. Don't come closer." I sob/whisper. He stops.
"Jiminnie! I'm sorry! I'm not angry and you don't have to be scared." He says with a soft voice. I don't say anything, just starre at the clothes in my hands and cry.
"Jiminnie! Let me help you put on your clothes, ok? Jin just finish cooking  and he wants us down! You know how angry Eomma can get when we let him wait." He gives me a small smile and comes up to me. I'm to tired to fight him when he starts to dress me. Crying makes really tired. My eyes starts to close.
"Jiminnie what happen to you? Why are you like this? I want to help you but how?" That is the last thing that I hear before I fell asleep.