I Need You ( A Jikook angst fanficiton)

Chapter 9

Jimin POV
They only left 5 minutes ago but I feel like it is already for hours. I feel so uncomfortable and unsave. I really don't like being here alone with Jungkoook. I do really question myself why I love him....He only hurts me but still the feelings aren't going away. I tried to hate him before, to ignore him....I'm really weak...am I?
"Jimin!" I look shocked up. This mean voice, without politeness, speaking as I would be dirt...Jungkook. I put a fake smile on.
"Yes Jungkookie?" He glares at me.
"Stop with you idiotic smile and make me food!" How can someone so cute speak with so much hate in his voice?
"No problem Kookie. What do you want?" I ask cheerful and jump up.
"STOP BEING SO DAMN HAPPY!" I jump.
"Why can't I be happy Jungkookie?" still happy.
"Because it makes me sick!!!" He says. Ohhh?
I ignore his comment and exit my room. Jungkook follows and stops me by my wrist before I could enter the kitchen. I don't turn around. Why is he doing this?
"I said it makes me sick" he says again.
"And I don't give a damn about that. Let me now go. I need to make you something to eat." I say with my monotone voice. He let go and I enter the kitchen. WHY DID I JUST DO THAT????? WHY COULDN'T I CONTROL MYSELF!!!!!
Because you are a nobody. You are useless! When will you accept it?
I already accepted it! I know that I'm useless and worthless!
"Jimin?" I put a smile on and turn around to face a concerned Jungkook.
"I'm making ramen. I hope that's ok. I'm not Jin, I can't cook you a prince meal. Sorry!" I give him a little bow.
"What happened back there?" he asks. Why do you have to ask Jungkook? Why do you care?
"Nothing!" I smile and finish the ramen but since I'm clumsy....The hot water fell down to the floor and splash all over me. On my tights, arms, chest and hand. I scream and hear Jungkook jumping. It does hurt a little but I'm numb....This pains only combines with the other. I clean it up and act like nothing happen.
"Jimin?! Are you hurt?" I give Jungkook a smile and shake my head.
"WHY ARE YOU ACTING LIKE THAT? YOU ARE A REAL FOOL. WHY CAN'T YOU DO ANYTHING RIGHT? YOU EVEN HURT YOURSELF!!!" Jungkook screams at me. I'm shocked. Why would he care....he hates me.
"I'M CALLING JIN HYUNG!" he says and takes his phone out.
"No! There is no need to!" I say. I don't need Jim to baby me and then he finding out about my work.
"You are hurt Jimin!" Jungkook says still emotionless.
"I can do this myself. Here cook yourself something! I'm sorry for all this. I will use the bathroom now and don't call Jin, please?!" I say and run into the bathroom. I'm so stupid!!!!
I take the first aid kit, mt best friend (a blade) and strip myself. I look down and see that the water did burn me badly...but I don't really feel it. I put a cream on my wounds and slide the to the floor. I start silently crying and start cutting my tights. Why don't I feel the pain anymore???? I need this pain!
"Jimin??" I jump up...that's Jins voice. Jungkook did really call him even tho I said no...pfff how am I kidding...Jungkook never does something that I say.
"Yes hyung?" I clear my throat trying to sound normal and not like I just cried.
"Jungkook phoned us that you got hurt. Let me in!"
"Hyung! I'm not hurt and ok." I says and clean my mess as fast as I can.
"Are you sure?" He is concerned...I can hear that.
"Yes hyung! I'm ok as always!" I open the door and see him standing there with Suga who gives me knowing glares.
"OMG your hand!" Jin takes my hand a looks at it. It's red and schwollen.
"Oh it's nothing to worry about hyung. I'm not hurt and don't feel the pain. I will leave now. I'm really tired and want to take a nap!" I smile at them and go to my room. I look around and see no J-Hope...good! I lay down on my bed and close my eyes. Bye cruel world for a short time.

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