I Need You ( A Jikook angst fanficiton)

Chapter 7

Jimin POV

I just lay in my bed and think what happened. Suga hyung was screaming at Jungkook because of me.
See what you do? They start to hate each other because of you! You are so useless!
I feel bad and hurt but to my surprise...I didn't cry. I feel numb...I feel nothing at all!
"Jimin?" I look up and see J-Hope sitting on his bed. "Are you ok? You were starring at nothing for like 10 minutes!" I'm falling into blackness and I'm not even fighting against it.
"PARK JIMIN!!!! WAKE UP!!" I jump up and I'm shocked. All the members stand before me and are looking at me concerned...even Jungkook. I look at them confused.
"Why are you all here? Even Jungkookie!" I give them a big fake smile.
"Stop joking Jimin!" I look shocked at Jins cold voice. He never speaks like that.
"What?" I ask. I'm really confused!
You are just to dumb!
Why can't this voice stop? I know that already!!!
"Jimin?" I look at Rapmonster.
"I know....I got no jams!" I laugh a little and smile at them.
"No! It's not that! Why are spacing out like that?" He ask in a serious tone. The leader indeed!
"Ohhh was I? Ohh I'm just feeling a little ill!" I smile. That fake smiling makes me feel soo sick but I have too!!
"Ill? Are you sick????" Jin jumps up and runs out of the room.
"And here we go. The Eomma module is on!" V says and exits the room, followed by Rapmonster. J-Hope gives me look and exits then too.
"A good save Jiminnie!" Suga hyung says and gives me an knowing look.
"A save?" I look at Jungkook. I totally forgot him. Wait...he looks kind of different. He looks concerned....What to say???? He can't find out.
"Ohhhhh that...ehm it's just that hyung aet alot of chocolate so hyung is now ill!" I laugh. I give Suga a look. He nods and just sit down beside me.
"Since when are you both close?" Jungkook asks. Why is he so nice? He doesn't speak with disgust in his voice?!
"Since today! Why??" Suga hyung says angry.
"Hyung! Stop being mean to him! He is just asking!" I say. Why is he so angry at Jungkook?
"Why are you nice to him?" Suga glares at me then Jungkook.
"Because he is the golden maknae!" I say and give Jungkook a smile. He just struggle and leaves the room as fast as he can.
"He is out! Drop your fake smile now!" Suga says. I drop my smile and look at him with my emotionless face.
"You still don't want to tell me why you are like this and why you are lying to everyone?"
"Hyung. I'm not lying and I'm normal!" I say in my monotone voice.
"NO JIMIN YOU ARE NOT NORMAL!!!! What happened!!!!!" Suga yells. I don't answer and just starre at him.
"Suga? Why are you yelling at Jimin? He is ill! Leave the room!" Jin stands at the door with medication in his hands. Suga gives me a last glance and leaves. I smile a fake smile to Jin. I got to be happy Jimin and not the real Jimin. I found three works to describe myself right now:
numbness
blackness
nothing!
I'm freaken lost and nobody really sees it! Not even Suga and he knows one of my secrets. It's like a game where I'll totally win but still don't know what the price at the end is. Maybe my freedom?