Always & Forever

Chapter 22

Jason POV

"Camarie, can we talk real quick?" I asked once she entered our room. She nodded and hopped on to the bed.

"How was your day baby? You look stressed." She pointed out. That's because I am.

"Camarie, I hope that you understand that I love you a lot. You're the mother of my first child and a great one at that too."

"I know you love me Jason." She chuckled and smiled.

"That's the problem though. I love you but I'm not IN love with you." I said. Her smiled dropped into a frown and her head tilted to the side a bit.

"What do you mean by that? Love is love. It's either you love me or you don't." She said. I sighed and rubbed my face.

"I do love you but not enough to marry you. I'm IN love with someone else and it wouldn't be right if I married you. It would be unfair to you because I won't be giving all of me to you." I explained. Surprisingly, I don't feel as bad as I thought I would.

"Who Jason, who? Is it Talia?" She asked. I kept quiet, giving her the answer she's looking for.

"Wow. So what was I? A 4 year long rebound? You proposed and I'm over here planning the wedding of my dreams and you want to break everything off. What about our daughter? What are you going to tell her?" She asked, on the verge of tears.

"When that time comes, I will deal with it. You deserve better than me Camarie. Someone who can give you all the loving you want and need."

"That person is suppose to be you. I get it though, I must not be able to live up to the standards Talia placed. I got one question though." She said.

"Go ahead." I said.

"Did you sleep with Talia?" She asked. I ain't even about to sugar coat or lie about it.

"Yes I did. Two nights ago. I was at her place when I didn't come home that night." I said then shrugged.

"Fuck you." She mumbled. She took her ring off and threw it at me.

"Camarie, you can keep the ring. I don't want it." I said.

"I don't want that shit Jason! I fucking hate you and I hope that you go to hell. In fact, go fuck Talia or some shit." She said then got up from the bed.

I mean, being deep inside Talia sounds pretty nice right now but I'm trying to be considerate of Camarie's feelings. Honestly, I care about her a lot but I cheated on her and I don't love her like I love Talia. I think that I forced myself to love Camarie because I had no choice but to get over Talia. Now I'm determined to get Talia back and earn her trust back.

If God blesses me with Talia again, I swear that I will cherish her and treat her how she deserves to be treated. I'll give her as many kids as she wants and she can get the wedding if her dreams. She deserves everything and I'll break every bone in my body to give it to her.

Jay POV

"Mommy cut your hair baby girl?" I asked Mimi, examining her ponytail.

"Mhm. Yesterday she took me to the salon." She said as she squeezed her teddy bear tightly.

Zoey just dropped Kamesha off then went to do something I really don't care about. I don't understand why she cut my child's hair without asking me. She moves out and thinks she can go buck wild with what she does with my child. She's confused.

"Daddy, can we eat pizza tonight? Oh, and watch Barbie!" She squealed.

"Anything you want baby girl. Uncle Chris is coming over, are you excited?" I asked. She nodded and clapped her hands.

"Ok, go put your bag in your room and make sure you take your shoes off and wash up." I said. She nodded and ran up the stairs.

I groaned and say on the couch. I'm so stressed right now because I have to worry about running my father's business, taking care of my daughter, and finding out who shot her. Then I still have my dad down my neck about every damn thing. Nigga can't trust me anymore apparently since I can't protect my family according to him.

I don't understand my dad because he speaks about how he protected me and my sister but in reality he didn't. Talia was abandoned and raped. That's not really protecting her. Hypocritical ass.

"Jay!" I opened my eyes to see Talia enter the living room.

"Yes Talia?" I asked, regretting me giving her a key.

"I need your advice on something." She said. I groaned and gestured for her to sit down.

"What?"

"So let's say me and an ex of mine had sex but he's already in a relationship and I have someone too. So this ex says he'll drop his girl for me. Should I forgive him or should I just move on?" She asked, looking nervous as hell.

"Ok well first of all, you're horrible when it comes to being discreet. I know you're talking about Jason. Second, why were y'all even fucking in the first place. Third, I hope y'all used protection. Fourth, it depends on Jason honestly. You already took him back the second you decided to sleep with him." I said then shrugged.

She sighed and ran her fingers through her hair. I'm obviously not happy to hear that my sister was having sex with anybody. It's just really awkward. It's especially awkward since she's talking about Jason. I just don't want Talia to go through another heartbreak.

"Yo, yo!" I heard Chris yell then my front door slam shut. A few seconds later he appeared in the room.

"Hey Chris." Talia mumbled. She looked so defeated that it was hard to laugh.

"Hey sweet cheeks. Why you so down?" He asked, taking a seat in the recliner.

"She fucked Jason and now she doesn't know what to do." I said.

"Oh for real? Is that why Camarie moved out? I drove by his crib and homegirl was packing boxes into her car." Chris said, making Talia's head shoot up.

"Are you serious? This guy really broke up with her." Talia said more to herself than to us.

"It's about time. Nigga has been crying about being unhappy and been crying about Talia every damn day. I'm tired of hearing that shit so please T, I'm begging you, take him back." Chris begged.

"Take him back so I can get fucked over again?" She asked then laughed.

"Trust me T, my guy is ready to be faithful and he really does feel bad about how he did you years ago. People change Talia and Jason has changed." Chris vouched for Jason.

"I know people change but it doesn't erase what he did. How do I know he's not gonna fuck me over again? He cheated on me with Camarie then cheated on Camarie with me. That sounds like one unfaithful ass nigga to me." Talia rolled her eyes. This conversation is actually making me more exhausted. T acting like as if she's really not gonna take his ass back.

"Let him take you out and y'all can talk. You never know until you give him a chance. You over here making assumptions like as if this guy didn't just break of his ENGAGEMENT for you. If he didn't want to be with you, he would have just went home and still be with this Camarie girl." I said. She sighed and made herself comfortable on my couch. I'm confused, don't she got a house?

"Aight, Talia, you need to go figure your life or whatever." I said, basically kicking her out. Time for me to spend time with my daughter and Mimi already knows Chris suppose to be here.

"Whatever. I'll call you later Jay." She said then got up.

Once she left I let out a big sigh of relief. The only drama I really have time for is my own these days.

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I almost had a heart attack when I noticed I haven't posted a chapter in almost a year. Sorry guys. I'll try and do better!