Beautiful Lies and Silent Truths

'Bestfriend'

'Bestfriend'

I don't know if I'm going to say this

From a point of view

Of a person who I once 'knew'

And by knew I mean

Did I really know them?

Or was I really gullible enough to believe the facade they had made

'You're my best friend'

First of all

You do not lie to a best friend

You do not stab them in the back

You do not share their secrets when you promised them that you'd keep them

'You're my best friend'

Do you mean best friend forever?

Or best friend only for today?

She never clarified that to me

Because when she turned away I don't think she ever knew the definition of being a 'bestfriend'

Let alone a friend should I say

You do not tell a friend lies to save your so called 'friendship' just so that they could stand by your side

Because a friendship cannot be built upon lies

How are you supposed to know a person and help them when they feed you false information day after day

I should've known

From the moment she told me the first lie

That I could've possibly fixed everything that had broken me

But no...

I stuck by her, believing everything she told me

But one time I decided that I had to know all sides of the story

All sides before I could judge

Because I am sick of being used as a 'back up plan'

Used as someone who is just merely there for you to rant to

I still can't believe that she tried to turn my own friends against me

And used me to be her only friend

She'd hate on me behind my back

Thinking that she had covered her tracks

Pretending to be the one true friend I only had

But finally

When I found out that she had been lying to me

I fell apart in the arms of the real friends who had been waiting for me

And that maybe next time

When I do hear a lie

I'll know who my real friends truly are

Because until now

She still can't tell me the truth

- a.k.a