Being the Bad boy Alpha's Mate

Chapter 17- Lovebite

The car ride to the pack house was silent and in a way I welcomed it. I mean, it was better that way, the last thing I wanted to do right now was to talk, especially when my throat was so tightly constricted and my eyes burned so diligently, all signs that I wanted to cry my heart out right now.

Apparently my water works at school hadn't been enough.

I almost blushed when I glanced over at Alex to see dark spots where I cried on his shirt and wrinkles where I had gripped him so close.

Crying was something I'd rather not do in front of Alex, I mean for all the images I had of myself I wouldn't want Alex to begin believing those stuff too, worse like how he had finally decided to give our relationship a go.

Leave me to ruin it with my damn drama, that follows me everywhere apparently.

Granted this one was really Alex's drama, that I, unfortunately, got sucked into.

As I seemed to just love to do.

Just the thought of Alex leaving me made my heart constrict painfully.

Throughout the car ride, Alex made no effort to speak but could you blame him though, he was way out of his depth and I mean way . He's used to any girl bedding him and not blinking a blind eye or caring about the after effects. I guess now that he had me to deal with it was a big change.

Suddenly I felt like a burden.

A big load some burden.

I felt a shock slither down my back as Alex reached across and smoothed the crease in my forehead.

"What are you thinking about?" he questioned quietly looking at me so intently it made my knees wobble a bit.

Thank God for car seats right?

"Nothing. I just feel a bit... Never mind." I couldn't answer, I didn't know what to say really.

" Oh God you're changing your mind aren't you? I know I didn't start out the best but please don't change your mind on me. I'll do anything you want okay. I mean -"

I kissed him.

Why? 

Well to get him to shut up. Duh...

I mean he was so far off the mark.

He's actually been really good these past few days.

"What was that for?"

Choosing to ignore his question I jumped into a rant of my own.

"The truth is I'm absolutely terrified. I really don't know if I have what it takes to do this. I mean I thought you didn't want this and I managed to get my mind off of it for at least 2 minutes at a time, a part of me despising you another part wishing you'd change your mind and now that I have you I'm absolutely terrified that I'm going to mess this up and you'll get tired of me."

"I'm scared too Jessie."

"I can't believe that .You always look so collected and unperturbed while I'm over here throwing a hissy fit."

"Well we can't both go nuts, can we?" He said with that smug Alex look.

I paused my rant to smile at him.

"We can do this." he reassured taking hold of my hand.

This time his hold didn't result in somersaults in my stomach but it had the effect I needed right now. I sighed heavily as a wave of calm reassurance washed over me.

"Now I'm tired of this girly stuff, feelings and all that crap, can we please go inside?" he said with a mischievous grin.

"Well, you are a bad boy after all." I retorted feeling much better.