I Got Broken

Chapter 39

"Something feels wrong."Jordan suddenly faced me with suspicion.
"Hmmm?"I asked practically not wanting to wipe a smile off my face. Nasa library kami ngayon, apparently making an essay again in english.
The boys?Well let's just say they'd rather eat than study, even Justin. He said he had that homework practically written blindfolded. So me and Jordan decided to make this pass time to finish our homework.
"Alam mo lagi ka nalang naka ngiti?Meron kaba?"She asked clearly making my mood back to it's orginal.
"Now that's the girl I've known, welcome back to civilization my friend."She said as she tapped my shoulders.
"Pero seryoso, spill the beans."She demanded crossing her arms with an eyebrow raised.
"About what?"I ask innocently looking back at my task at hand.
"Oh come on, I know something happened."Bigla akong na consious sa sinabi ni Jordan, kaya tinago ko agad ito giving a poker face.
"Like what?"I asked maintaining the said poker face.
"I don't know, tungkol sa inyo ni Tyler maybe---I knew it!Maynangyari sa inyo."Sabi niya sabay turo sa mukha ko na biglang uminit sa sinabi niya.
"H-huh?"I reply clearly speechless.
"Kwento mo na kasi, I don't have all day."She said acting bored.
"Fine."I let out a sigh, then told her about my weakend with the whole Tyler thing which was 'okay'.

"Wait, so what you mean to say is Tyler was the long time friend you had at the states which is questioningly named Tibi"-She air quoted the Tibi part-"and he is also the reason why you're getting married at 18?"I gave her a nod.
"Wait let me process this."She said as she held out her hand and rubbed her temples with the other one. Binigyan ko siya ng moment saka nagpatuloy sa pagawa ng takdang alarin namin ng bigla siya sumigaw, it was more of a squeal actually which made the librarian glare at us. We mouthed a sorry as Jordan squealed again but in hush tones and I just roll my eyes to that. When she finally finished and calmed down she looked back at me.
"So mahal mo na siya?"The question dried my mouth.

Mahal?Mahal?Ma-hal?In english that's Love right?(Of course it is genius)
Akala ko ba Pag-ibig ang Love?Tagalog and it's weirdness.
But really do I love him?Even the word is scary. But I never really thought about it that much until now. Well I know that I like Tyler, there's no denying it. But love?Is that even possible?The once broken girl giving it a try in love, again. But if I think about it, I didn't wanted an involvement over friendship but where did it get me?I have Jordan, the boys, Pat?Or even someday Frace.
I thought of Clint the jerk who cheated on me for my bestfriend. The popular perfectly handsome jock who melted my heart whenever he did something sweet for me, like giving me flowers, making me go on dates with him, scoring a touchdown in football for me. And only to know that he only wanted one thing from me.
My Virginity.
Ha- a typical asshole, of course I didn't give it to him. I was 15 for peets sake, but hey it was damn America even 10 year olds do it occasionally. So when I didn't budge about it, he just goes screwing others. And I guess Cindy my bitch of a bestfriend went for it, thinking that it was Clint the hottest quarterback on the field. I knew it wasn't new to Cindy, the whole sex related topics and shit. Well letting everyone know that she's gorgeous and has a rocking body, what guy wouldn't ever want to have a one night stand on her?but to tell you, she doesn't go for the cheap ones.
She goes for the 'big boys' as she calls it.
I don't know why I even put up with them, they honestly just bring out the bad in me but I guess it was just me being desperate. Desperate to have atleast a friend and a boyfriend and where did it lead on to?
A funeral and a Sofia attempts on suicide.
"Uy okay kalang?"My thoughts were bothered with a worried look from Jordan.
"Yep."I answered.
"Sure?"
"Sure."
"Okay then back to my---"I interrupt her, "Please, just not right now."I pleaded, so she let's it go making us both continue our work in silence.

Nasa hallway kami ngayon patungo na sa class namin. Simula nung topic namin ni Jordan sa Lib kanina, hindi na kami masyadong nag salita sa isa't isa. Papasok na sana ako sa pintuan, pero pinigilan ako ni Jordan kaya napatingin ako sa kanya.
"Alam mong nandito lang ako diba?I have ears and I'm pretty sure I use them for hearing people out. Kung gusto mo ng kausap, lagi mong tatandaan na nadito lang ako."She gave me a reassuring smile.
"Of course you are."I retorded.
"I'm serious."She mused.
"Well thanks."Sabi ko sabay ngiti.
"What are friends for?"She said amused.
"Friends are those people you share secrets with?"I asked slowing down my words.
"Exactly."Sabi niya with a thumbs up and a nod.
"So I'm told, you never even told me about what's going on with you and lover boy Seth."She gave a cute blush at what I said giving me the opportunity to smirk.
Oh I can't let this slide.
"Ha- busted, spill it."I demanded copying her moves earlier, like crossing my arms with a raised eyebrow.
"Okay fine, we're dating."Sabi niya na hindi tumingin sakin.
"What?Don't look at me like that, it's scary."Sabi niya na parang natatakot, pero hindi naman talaga. Ha- I have no idea what that meant.
"So...that's it?"I ask bluntly with a grin.
"Would you stop?Hindi pa kami mag on okay?Knowing that he's a playboy, I could get hurt. So I'm still testing him and if he really is serious then I'll say yes."
"Huh nice approach, playing hard to get. You got skills."I joked which we both laughed.
"Well I'm the best, if I do say so myself."And again we laugh as we approach our seat next to the boys.

A/N:
Been busy with life...😅😅😅
Apparently..but no one reads this so yeah..