"Happy" family

Depressing

(Mackenzie's POV)
I've been awake for an hour now just staring at the hospital walls. It's almost time for visiting hours so Katy, Tamra, Orlando and Flynn will be coming to get me soon. I feel sort of empty, I can't understand how I could miss 5 weeks of my life? What's happened in those 5 weeks? Where do I stand anymore? Has everyone just got use to being without me? I keep getting flashes of what I think life would be like for everyone if I wasn't around, it would certainly be less stressful for Katy. I'll just go lay on my bed when we get home and let them forget about me because I really don't want to be a burden all over again. It's a pretty quiet trip back home, no one really knows what to say to each other like 'hey not to annoy anyone but what's been happening for the last 5 weeks?' I can see that going down great. Tamra try's to comfort me by holding my hand all the way home but it's really just making me feel worse. As soon as we get back I go straight to my room and shut the door. I feel nothing and everything all at once. I hope that everyone's gone to do their own thing so I can be left alone for a little while. I grab a teddy, pull the curtains shut, leave the lights off and sit in a cold dark corner with my knees tucked up to my chin. I just whimper and hug the teddy with my eyes shut. I don't want to be here, their fine without me.
(Katy's POV)
"Oh whoops I forgot to give Mackenzie back her bracelet she left in the car, hold on." Tamra heads off to Mackenzie's room. I know I should go up and see her but I don't want to make her feel horrible. I can't explain the amount of tears and fear that has gone through this family in the last 5 weeks and she has no idea of any of it but I also don't know how she's feeling. "Uhh.. Katy you might want to go see Mackenzie?" Tamra comes into the kitchen where I'm leaning on the bench just thinking to myself. She still has the bracelet in her hand? "Why what's happened?" I stand up and start to head to Mackenzie's room. "I just opened the door slightly and shes sitting in the dark crying, I didn't want to make it worse so I came and got you." I head into Mackenzie's room and Tamra heads back down stairs. I get the door open and sit down beside her before she realises I'm here. "It's okay, everything will be absolutely fine." She turns away from me which she's never done. "Hey! Look at me." She turns her head towards me. "When have we ever gone through something and not come out of it together?" She mumbles back. "Never...." "Then? What's wrong?" "I just thought you would have forgotten about me by now or moved on and maybe your life's easier without me in it." She drops her head back down. "Yeah it's easier but not in the way that you think, it's easier to make one lunch instead of two but it's not easier to sit alone eating my lunch and wishing I could hear one of your silly jokes again or sit with you and talk while we eat our lunch. I wish you knew how much I love you Mackenzie. I'm never going to turn around one day and say I don't love you anymore or I don't want you anymore, it's just never going to happen.. Okay?" I pull her arms away from her knees and pull her up to her feet as I stand with her. "Come here" I lift her up and squeeze her tight so she knows I've missed her.
(Mackenzie's POV)
I'm sort of relieved but I'm also still feeling pretty sad and empty. There's just something missing.... Like 5 weeks of somethings. Katy doesn't put me down. She walks over to the curtains and opens them again and takes me downstairs. In a way I'm happy I'm so small, I'd miss being carried everywhere when I don't feel like moving. How do average size people get about when they don't even feel like getting out of bed? I feel bad for them. We go into the living room and Tamra, Erika and Orlando and talking. I don't feel like seeing their pitiful glances so I close my eyes. Katy has other ideas. "No sleeping or you won't sleep tonight." She kisses my head and turns me around so I'm sitting on her lap facing the TV and people in the room. "So tour re-starts in two days so I hope you're ready?" Tamra starts talking to Katy. "Yup, everything's pretty much packed. All of Mackenzie's stuff is already packed and Orlando's staying home with Flynn, but they'll come out for visits when we can't get home." Katy says it as though she's informing me of what I've missed without trying to make me feel left out. I slouch and put my head back onto Katy's shoulder.