"Happy" family

Stressed out

(Mackenzie's POV)
The last few days have been really stressful on Katy, she's just started the tour and it's been a bumpy start. First she forgot part of one of the dance routines on stage, the katycats loved it and thought it was hilarious but I can see all the trending jokes and memes about it are hurting her feelings. Then Orlando had to take Flynn and go start a film in New York so we don't know when we will see them again which is also stressing Katy out because I can tell that she's trying her hardest to make things work. Lastly there was a stuff up with tickets and a bunch of katycats missed out on tickets even though that show hadn't even sold out which made katy feel terrible when they were posting online about how upset they were. I don't really know how to make her feel better, she always makes me feel better but I just seem to get in the way or make it worse. Today's probably been the worst day. Starting a tour is harder then any other part of it because you're starting a whole new routine and there's no time for mistakes or forgetfulness. Katy messed up and went to the dance practise an hour too late, they don't tell her off as such because she is the boss but they remind her that it's important to be on time and basically just look at her with disappointment. As she was removing her make up after the show and she could finally cry without ruining her make up its like the flood gates opened. Katy doesn't cry, she gets frustrated and annoyed but she doesn't cry so I can tell she must be under a lot of pressure right now. I couldn't stand to sit there and just watch her cry like everyone else was so I snuck out and went outside. It's so dark but I can see streetlights in the distance. I sit down and press my back against to freezing cold brick wall. I feel bad for crying but it's hard watching someone struggle and you can't do anything to help them or even worse, you try help them and you make it worse and just feel absolutely pointless because you can't do anything to make it better. It's been stressful for everyone. Katy's the heart of this tour and when she's stressed or upset then everyone is stressed and upset. I don't realise but a lot of time must have passed by or maybe not? I don't know all I know is I can hear multiple panicked voices call out my name from inside the building so I stand up and dust myself off before heading back in. "Mackenzie! Katy I found her!" Shannon, Katy's best friend yells out and speed walks towards me. "Katy has been looking for you everywhere! Come on." Shannon grabs my hand and we walk quickly back to Katy's dressing room. "I found her!" Shannon states as she walks through the door. "OMG! Mackenzie I was worried sick! Where were you!?" Katy rushes towards me and crouches down on the floor so she's at my height before squeezing the life out of me. "I was just sitting outside, how long was I gone?" "Kenzie you know better then to go outside alone! What if someone had taken you or hurt you? How would I have known and you didn't tell anyone you were leaving! You were gone for a hour!" Katy's face has turned bright raging red. I've never been the culprit of Katy's anger before. Tears stream down my face as I realise I've once again made things worse. "Oh Mackenzie, I'm sorry. I was just so worried about you, I thought some crazy person had grabbed you when I wasn't looking. I shouldn't have snapped but you shouldn't have walked off without telling either me, Tamra or Shannon but mostly me." I give Katy a hug. "I'm sorry I won't do it again, I promise. I just thought you were so upset about everything else that I would make it worse if I asked you if I could leave." "You wouldn't have made it worse, you can't make it worse your too special. Why did you want to leave though?" Katy's looks at me intrigued. "I don't like to see you hurt or crying so I had to leave, sorry." I look down, I just admitted that I knew she was upset and I walked away from her. I'm such a great person.. Not. "I'm okay sweetie I promise, it's just a bit stressful sometimes but we'll make it through." Katy picks me up and everyone gets ready to leave and get on another plane to another city after another drama. Someone should write a book or film on our life's, it'd probably be way to dramatic for a film or book though.