Discovering Evelyn

[19]

chapter nineteen:

My body froze and even though my eyes had fluttered shut on instinct I couldn't breathe. Carter was kissing me, his lips were on mine. We were locking lips in my bedroom. What had my life come too?

A couple weeks ago I had no clue who Carter was, I had no guess that this boy would become such an important part in my life. Yet at the same time still be somewhat of a stranger and someone who I wanted to keep out of my life.

Carter sure was something else, he was thing quirky human being who, at times, didn't know a thing or two about personal space or about keeping his mouth shut. It seemed that he didn't have that little voice in his brain to tell him to shut up every once in a while.

He didn't have a filter.

I had learned quickly that it was both a good and a bad trait of his. Good in the sense that he wasn't afraid of speaking his mind, standing up for his beliefs. Yet almost bad for the same reasons, as he would take things too far and say things that were uncalled for.

My brain was buzzing, every piece of knowledge had turned to mush as his lips moved against mine. I couldn't help myself, I gripped the fabric of his teeshirt as I tried to pull his body closer to mine. In the back of my mind I knew that I should've pushed him away, that this shouldn't be happening. But I didn't care, all I was focused on right now was Carter and his lips.

His hands gripped my hips, his fingers brushing the hem of my sweater. Every part of my body felt like it was on fire, my heart felt like it was going to beat its way out of my chest. However every feeling came to an abrupt halt as he pulled away.

I looked up at him, eyes glazed over, trying to calm my breathing down. I tired my best, but it was no use, I couldn't form any words. He said nothing as his eyes searched mine. I quickly released my hold on his shirt and took a step back.

All of the blood in my body found its way to my face as it was suddenly lit on fire. I averted my gaze before looking back at him, like always his focus was still on me.

"That was.."

I couldn't find the right word to explain it. There was no way I was going to tell Carter that one kiss from him sent me off into another world. There was no way to describe how I felt, no way to explain the jittery feeling in my stomach that had yet to leave.

The tingles running through my legs or the burning sensation on my lips. There was no doubt in my mind that I looked flustered right now, because I truly was. Never before had I had a boy kiss me like that, and left me how I was now.

Carter let out a breath and scratched the back of his neck.

"Sorry about that Evelyn."

I raised my eyebrows, this boy was sorry?

"It's fine."

I wanted to smack myself in the face, the kiss had been anything but fine but what else was I supposed to say. Before I could overthink it anymore he was reaching for his backpack and heading for my bedroom door.

I opened my mouth to tell him not to leave but he just muttered a see you around and disappeared. I stood there in the middle of the hallway alone, hand pressed to my lips.

"What the hell just happened."

**

I was outside in the backyard, searching the internet aimlessly when Evan came outside and took a seat beside me.

"Why is your computer screen blank?"

I snapped out of my daze, looking over at my brother.

"Is it a crime to have a blank computer screen?"