A Year With Williams

Chapter 30

Day 269

I slept the whole day yesterday. I woke up in the evening to call Samuel and ask him how he has been because we haven't met in months and because I wanted to divert my attention elsewhere.

The more I think about the night camp, the more confused I get. I remember how he wasn't there dancing and how I didn't watch the movie.

I remember how in the morning yesterday he tried to make conversation when we were gathered together to go for a walk but I was to tired for anything to make sense.

I remember how he said he couldn't sleep the whole night.

I couldn't too. But I guess we have different reasons.

I remember how me and Katie saw our first sunrise together.

I remember how messy his hair were. How I wanted to run my hands through them and I remember how beautiful his eyes are.

I had to distract myself to function properly.

Turns out Samuel isn't even here in Goa. He is in Pune for some work. So my chances of distracting myself drawn.

We did talk a bit. I didn't tell him about Max. I don't know him that much.

But basically I am back on doing what I do the best, Ignoring the situation because I don't know how to face it.

And Max confuses me. I really don't think he can like me, ever and I still hope that this doesn't end bad.

"You all have to make a presentation on any freedom fighter. Make groups." Our history teacher says.

I stop the urge to roll my eyes.

She is one of the teachers who I really do not like. She makes us stand and read the chapter aloud without explaining a word and expects us to score well.

History is supposed to be discussed, not read.

And if you ask her to explain, she would either tell you to read it again because if we pay attention we would understand.

Yeah right! The book is going to talk to me and tell me a background story.

She could discuss on how the elections are 'fair' and not 'black' because fairness creams are important.

I don't know if that is racist or plain stupid.

I haven't yet tried to talk to Max. I don't know what to say.

"Ooh Ramona is in my group." Rachel yells.

"Yeah and Sam too." Emma agrees.

And soon enough the people who I thought I would do the project with are taken by Rachel and Emma.

And we go all the way back to phase one. I am yet again unaccepted.

I feel betrayed. My only friends wouldn't let me in the group because of Rachel and Emma.

I also feel a little hurt but push it aside.

One thing I know about myself is that I am not week. I am capable enough to this this alone. So if no one wants me, I'll do it on my own.

And I'll make sure it is done well enough to make them realize my worth.

With this determination I am about to say my decision aloud but Mira breaks it to me.

"Emmy can be in our group."

What?

And that does the magic.

Everyone suddenly realizes that I can do things or something because next thing that Rachel says is,"Wait, why isn't she in our group?"

"No we will take her. You all anyways didn't want her." Jacob says.

Their group consists of Megan, Jacob, Mira and Max.

"Children calm down, let me hear it from her." Our history teacher tries.

Like anyone would listen to her.

"No she is in my group." This time its Max who says it.

My heart rate picks up.

"But....." Rachel starts to say something.

"Mine."

One word and I feel breathless.

"Umm...."

"I said mine. I mean it. Mine. Means. Mine."

And as soon our history teacher opens her mouth to say something he starts reapeating that one word.

"Let her decide." She finally says in between.

"Mine." This time he says it louder. The class goes silent for some seconds.

Now I am not an object and would not like to be treated like one. But the female hormones get the best of me as I blush.

There goes all my feminism.

I hate it when guys objectify girls. But this is something I appreciate. No one ever has done something like this for me.

Everyone turns to look at us.

"Yours." I whisper.

No one hears it or that's atleast what I think and people start talking again.

I feel this urgent need to assure him that I am not going anywhere. But I don't. I don't even turn around.

"Emmy....?" The history teacher says.

"I'll be in Mira's group." I say out loud as Max finally sits down.

Either people didn't notice how he used the word 'mine' instead of 'our group' or something like that or I am over thinking.

"Thank you." I mumble.

I don't even know why am I thanking him but I do.

"You deserve it." He says leaving me more confused than I was ever before.

And I don't know if being with him in this group will be good or bad.

Let's not forget we have Megan who till now hasn't said anything about me.

Oh god give me some power.