Love Me for Me

Chapter Thirty-Two

Three days have passed and Anna still hasn't woken up. I have been in hell since then, it seems like she isn't even getting better. We are basically living in this damn hospital room. I had to ask the hospital to bring in a crib and a cot for Ciara and the little one. I haven't named the little girl since she is technically Anna's. I swear we were so cramped we could barely move and don't get me started on the food. We have been eating fast food for four days straight.

"Hey," Angie said walking in with food in her hand. "Hey."

"How she doing now?"

"The same, no movement or anything. I'm really starting to worry now. I mean what if she doesn't wake up."

"You can't think that way Hayden. Anna knows what is waiting for her and she will not leave that behind. You have to give her and her body time to recover so when she comes back to you she is ready."

"Fine. Look I need you to watch things here while I go take care of some business."

"Wow back to business as usual already?"

"This can't wait."

"I know the longer you wait to kill Kyle the more it weighs on you especially with Anna's condition." I stopped everything and looked at her. "Who told you about Kyle?"

"Levi told me," she said fast like I wouldn't hear it. "And why would he do that," I asked with an eye brow raised. "No reason," she said trying to play it off. I decided to let go for now but I would revisit this. I got up and kissed everyone good bye.

I went straight to the trap to take care of Kyle. "What you doing here boss? Anna wake up?" Lucas asked as I walked in. "Nah I came here to take care of Kyle."

"I thought we were waiting for Anna to wake up?"

"Change of plans." I walked down to the dungeons and saw him chained up. He was badly beaten but was hanging in there. "I thought I said that no one was to touch him?"

"I can't watch everyone man. With you being gone and Levi out trying to track down who helped I am swamped. Some of these guys are angry at what he did to Anna and want revenge so they sneak in when they can."

"Speaking of Levi, what's up with him and Angie?"

"What the hell you mean?"

"Exactly what I said, he been telling her shit that's going on here and I want to know why."

"They probably fucking or some shit, I mean Angie screws anything that looks her way and my brother will take pussy wherever he can get it," he said not believing his own words. He looked jealous. "Yea okay," was all I said as I armed up to go in.

As soon as I walked in it smelled of shit and piss. "Damn dude!"

"Fuck you! If you are going to kill me do it already!"

"Oh trust me I am going to kill you but I want to take my time," I said leaning up against the wall. "This is the dude she left me for," he said shaking his head. "Yea she chose me but that wasn't good enough for you, yo had to play with her life. You had to prove you could be the baddest."

"Trust me when I say I didn't have to prove anything. Her won brother turned against her to fight for me," he said smiling. "And do you see him? No, because he is dead just like you will be. I mean if yo are going to recruit you should really make sure they know how to play."

"Hey sometimes you gotta do what you gotta do."

"So putting Anna through an early labor is doing what you gotta do?" he sat up and looked up at me. "The bitch has lasted through much more I knew she would be okay."

"She is NOT okay! She is lying in a hospital bed fighting for her damn life!"

"Look at the irony," he said holding up his hands and laughing. "So this is all just a joke to you?"

"Nigga this whole shit has always been a damn joke. In the game you can't catch feelings for yo bitch! When I had her I treat her like the bitch she was, she was nothing to me but a fuck when I needed it. Somewhere down the line you lost sight of that and caught feelings. Just because she carries yo child doesn't mean shit, it just means yo sperm know how to fucking swim. You congratulate yourself and move on to the next bitch!"

"Well, congratulations son of bitch," I shot him ten times in the head until I was satisfied. For some reason I thought that would make me feel better but it didn't, the void I had from Anna being gone was still there.

By the time I left the trap I had blood all over me so I headed home to get cleaned up. I hadn't been back to the house since everything happen, I just couldn't do it. Soon as I walked in I smelled her. I walked to the bedroom and saw her t-shirt lying on the bed. I picked it up and held it closed to me. It smelled just like her. Once again the tears began to flow. "I didn't have time to get to this room yet," a voice said scaring the hell out me. I turned around and it was Momma J. I just sat on the bed with the shirt in my hands. "I tried to get everything together before you came back."

"You don't have to do that."

"I know how hard this is for you and I wanted to just help you out by cleaning up the house. I know this is what Anna does but I think it needs to be done."

"I just want her back Momma."

"Hayden she hasn't gone anywhere."

"Not yet."

"Don't you dare think that way Hayden Marks. That girl of yours is a fighter, she did not come all this way to die like this. If you stop believing in her then what is making her believe. If one of you gives up then the other one will follow."

"I just feel so helpless. I stay there every night waiting for her to come back to me but still every day passes and nothing. How am I supposed to continue to believe when progress doesn't seem to be happening?"

"Because that's what life is about son. Noteverything that happens will, will happen immediately. Sometimes you have to bepatient and let God do what is best at. And I'm not going to lie sometimes theoutcome will not be what you want but you cannot lose hope or you will surlylose everything." I nodded and took in everything she was saying. "Now go take a shower and then rest." After I took a shower I crawled in bed and eventually fell asleep.

When I woke up I felt like I had slept for days. I smelled something good coming from downstairs. I followed the scent and found Momma J over the stove cooking. "Something smells good."

"Boy I know this!" she said flipping her hair. I laughed and sat down at the island. She sat a plate of food in front of me which was lasagna with green beans and corn bread. I instantly dug in and man I felt like I died and went to heaven. "Well I'm glad to see your appetite hasn't left you."

"This food is banging!"

"You better get all you can, I'm taking the rest to my babies at the hospital. They need some real food." I was about to respond when I got a call from Angie. "I'm on my way." I gathered my things and headed for the door. "Wait what's happening?"

"Anna was rushed into surgery."