5 | Shut Out

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*Blue's POV*

"Leo, I know you're behind me." I mumbled as I flipped the dial on my locker, not even bothering to try opening it. Leo poked his head from around the lockers right next to mine. He had been following me all morning, along with the occasional following by Adam and Bree.

I grabbed Leo's wrist and whirled him around to face me. He had a shocked look on his face.

"Oh don't act so surprised. I'm not as stupid as all of you guys think I am. Why are you following me?" Leo crossed his arms over his chest and grinned at me.

"Chase wouldn't stop talking about you last night, so we thought that maybe if we watched you, it would make him feel better, he seemed worried. But don't worry," Leo jumped closer to me and did a bad battle position. "I'll protect you."

I snorted and shoved Leo back in front of me. "Well, you can go and tell Chasey that I can take care of myself." Just as I turned around to walk somewhere (anywhere but here) I rammed into Chase's chest.

He immediately took a step back, a blush rising to his cheeks (as well as mine).
I turned my gaze to fire and glared at him. "You told them to follow me, huh?"

Chase looked at me confused. "What? I didn't-"

"Then why were Leo, Adam, and Bree following me around all day? I can take care of myself you know. Like you said before, this is just a stupid business relationship, nothing more, right?" I sensed Leo take a couple of steps back. "Just leave me alone Chase! I don't need my new tutor pushing his way into my life when there is a reason why I shut everyone out! So stop worrying about me, I'm fine! I can handle myself, and I don't need your help to do it!"

I turned on my heel and stormed off, shouldering past Adam and Bree who I was sure had heard the whole thing and ran somewhere (anywhere, literally anywhere but here).

-One week later-

             Things between me and Chase and the Davenports have been pretty simple. One, I go over to study with Chase for 1 hour, I don't stay any longer, don't speak to anyone but him, and then I go home. Two, we pretend like we don't know each other at school unless it's to discuss my grades. And finally, three, I'm NOT allowing myself to fall in love with him.

               I open my heart a little bit, and all of a sudden people start asking questions. And by people I mean Chase. He can't know what goes on at home. He can't know that I've cried every night leading up to today.

               The truth is, I'm terrified.

Plotting revenge, trying to keep secrets, lying to everyone I know. It's not as easy as you think. Sure, you can put on the mask and make people think you're okay but you can never forget how horrible it feels to be the only one knowing.

                That's why I'm shutting everyone out. Starting today.

I'm going to get my grades up to an A by the end of this week and then me and Chase will shake hands and be on our way. I won't ever have to see him again. And then everything will be okay.

                Shutting people out is the only way to keep things from getting worse. Last time I told someone, mom got sent to rehab, faked getting better, and once she was let out she broke my arms and my legs and from that day on she threw glass bottles at me hoping that she would get to watch me die on the spot.

                You know whenever you're sad you always say, I want to go home? Well, I would go anywhere but home. I just wish that someone could take me in.

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