Falling Slowly ↭ jikook [COMPLETE]

17. Am I Gay?

Picture above: Halla and Jungkook - I kinda ship them but yea... Jungkook is gay here, for Jimin. LOL

"Will you go out with me?" Sh*t. Why did I even ask her that? I see the corners of her lips curve and her eyes slowly open. She sits up straight, almost making our heads hit each other. She looks at me brightly.

"Are you serious?" She laughs but not in a mocking way. I internally smack myself on the face. I close my eyes and purse my lips. I never felt so ashamed of myself until now. Can someone dig me a hole?

"I think." I blink at her. She purses her lips into a smile. She leans in and attaches our lips. Her mouth tasted like cigarette and menthol. I close my eyes feeling her lips against mine. It makes me all giddy inside. She breaks the kiss. It's the first time I kissed a girl. It's a great experience.

"Is that a yes?" My heart is pounding. Her smile disappears.

"No." She says with a straight face.

"What? Then, why did you kiss me?" I say in a high pitched tone. I am annoyed.

"Dude, you're gay." She laughs and leans back on her chair.

"But I felt something..." I look down. I feel so humiliated.

"You're just confused." She states and goes back to sleep.

"But Halla, I think I sort of like you." I keel on looking down on my shoes.

"Nah, Jungkook. I'm just f*cking with you." She laughs and holds my hand. I look at her, "Sure, I'll go out with you."

I have the urge to kiss her and I do it, "Thank you," I whisper, smiling against her curved lips.

"You're really handsome, Jungkook." She plays with the hair on my nape, twirling it consistently.

"You're beautiful." I mumble and peck her lips. The peck turns into a kiss then into a make out session. She sits on top of me without breaking the kiss. My hands find their way on her back. She grinds her hips on mine, earning a moan from both of us. I stop her and smile.

"So, where do you want to go later?" I bite my lip, staring into her eyes. She smiles.

"Where do you think I want us to go?" She gives me a knowing look and shifts on top of me. I throw my head back. She starts to kiss my neck, making me shiver.

"My bed?" I tease. She punches my chest playfully.

"Jerk." She stands up and walks away to light a cigarette.

"Hey, Halla!" I call while I run to her. She turns around with an unlit cigarette on her mouth.

"Can you stop smoking? I don't want you to die." I stop in front of her. She let out a soft laugh.

"People die, Jeon." She places her hand over my shoulder while lighting her cigarette, "No matter what you do, that's where you'll end up. Just do what makes you happy and what is right, that'll make your life worthwhile."

"You can call the date off. I know you're not happy. He loves you and I know you love him back. If I were you, I won't waste my time thinking." She blows a smoke. She didn't mention a name but I know she's talking about Jimin. It's always been.

"It was nice meeting you, Jeon." She pats my back.

After that, she walks off, leaving me alone in the gymnasium. What was I thinking? She already said that she never had a serious relationship. And I think she has no plan to have one, yet. Ugh. Stupid me.

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