Thug Life is the Life To live

All around CRAZY

SHY POV

I heard Tre screaming my name so i ran downstairs to see what was wrong. He was sitting at our kitchen table and he looked mad as hell. Baby are u okay? I said walking towards him. He just looked at me with these cold heartless eyes. Tre, whats wrong? I asked sounding more concerned.

"BITCH YOU ARE WHATS WRONG!"

It hurt me to my heart to hear him call me a bitch! He had tears rolling down his face. I had never seen him cry! What the fuck could i have possibly done that was so bad?!

Tre what the fuck are you talking about?

"Why didnt you tell me who Tremaines father was?!" My heart dropped! I swear i was planning on telling him today. Who the fuck could have possibly told him?! Tre baby i swear i wa-

"Save it Shyanne! You know... I really fucking loved you and YOUR SON! I wanted to be his father and give him everything a little boy needs in this world! I took ya niggas in when you had no one else. I stayed faithful to yo ass i havent even talked to no other bitches and this is how you fucking repay me? All i asked was for you to be real but i guess that was asking too much huh? You are such a liar and a fuck up i swear to god i cant believe you! Never in my life have i felt like this about a female. You were my first love Shy! MY FIRST LOVE! I wanted you to have my baby but you couldnt even do that huh? Cause you still love Tony. You still fucking him?

TRE I DONT LOVE TONY! I LOVE YOU BABY PLEA-

"Nope nope nope" he shook his head cutting me off. "I DONT WANT TO HEAR IT! Tony kilt 4 of my niggas! One is on life support and Quay is in jail because of him! 6 niggas down because of YOUR SONS FATHER and i could of been one of them Shy do u understand that? As many times as ive asked you, and asked you, and asked you who was lil Treys father!" He put his head down and took deep breathes. Trey started to cry but i was honestly to scared, hurt, and nervous to move at this point.

"You know.. Being the nigga that i am im not even gon kick you out right away! Ima be nice and give you 24 hours to find a new place to stay cause this right here.... AINT YO HOME ANYMORE!" He shoved past me and and stormed out the house. I ran to baby Trey who was hysterically crying by now and i just rocked him. To my surprise he calmed down fast and fell right to sleep. I took the opportunity to lay him down and pack our stuff. I wish i could explain to you on how i was feeling but no words can describe this pain. The worst part is its all my fault. I should of been told Tre about Tony being baby Treys father. He has every reason to hate me. Shit, i even hate me. Who doesent hate me? Im fucking useless. The only thing that keeps me going is Tremaine. I love him more than i love myself and if i have to go through hell and back to give him the life he deserves then god dammit i will!

A hour & 30 minutes later ~

I had all of mine and Treys stuff packed. My head was hurting so bad and my eyes were red and puffy from crying so much. I was glad Trey was still asleep because i wouldnt want him to see me like this. We literally have no where to go. Ive weighed out all my options and there was no way i was going to call my mom so that left my two close friends Patrice and Lynnae. The fact that i havent talked to either of them in months made me feel awkward about asking them for help so i kinda got rid of that thought and there was no way in hell i was going back to that infected shelter! I was stressing big time when i thought about my aunt that lives in Georgia. I have remembered her number ever since i was 10 years old. She was my only option so i decided to give her a call.

20 minutes later ~

After i hung up with my aunt i decided to leave Tre a note apologizing to him. I really didnt want to leave New York but i didnt have a choice. I had something good going for me but i fucked up so now i have to pay for it. As expected my aunt was all for me coming to stay with her. She wired me some money to my card for a plane ticket. In about 6 hours i will officially be starting my life all over again. I grabbed Trey out his crib and my baby was wide awoke now. It made me smile to see those big brown eyes starting at me. I swear this little boy is my motivation! Mommy got this baby i promise we gon make it. He smiled at me and with him in my right arm together we walked out the door.