Everyday Thoughts

I'm Perfect For You

This uncontrollable feeling comes over me as I try to speak these words that

wouldn't flow

That wouldn't go

My mind slowly going insane as I think of you

As I look at you

What am I worth,

When I can't simply speak

I can't say a word to you

But I am me

I shouldn't feel

I can't feel

I don't understand your feelings

Or is it that I can't understand

I can't comprehend the words you uter

Or sputter

Trying to convince me

Of what, your love?

What is your love?

What are we doing ?

This game we play

Trying to convince me that you're good

Good for me

But I see you

I see more than you think

That drives me wild

I'm lost

Lost

Going in circles

Trying to speak the words that come out of my estrange heart

Trying to teach myself how to feel

Rather than conceal

It feels so silly

Stomping and pouting

Trying to show you that i'm not what you perceive

I'm not who you believe

Believe me to be

I'm running

Running to get away from you

And us

As I stare at what I can't have

I smile and laugh questioning the existence

And I realize that I am no more

I wish to fade away from all I see

All that I wish to be

"Leave me be

Let me leave

Let go of me

Set me free"

I chant as you pull me close not letting go

I realize that you'd rather be close

And I

Well I wish to be alone

Nothing more

Nothing less

leaving you with a small smile and all my regrets

Sad smiles

Happy eternity

Me

And

You

Is a vision you see in your dream

Wrapped in my love

The love that shows no sign of existence

I whisk you away

Speaking

Speaking sweet words of a future that is nonexistent

I leave you in heat over me

And disappear leaving nothing

Not a trace

Now you know why I should've been left alone

Why you should leave me be?

Realize that I'm no good

No good for you to continue to see

Look at your attachment

Realize it was nothing to pursue

That it was all just a ruse

Then maybe

Maybe just then you'll know

Why I can't be the light in your life

And why this could never be true

Then maybe then you'll see

See that i'm perfect

Perfect for you

To lose