Everyday Thoughts

I Didn't Know

I didn’t know

I didn't know

I didn’t know when you were yelling at me it was to help

I didn't know

I didn't know all those times you didn’t show up to my shows you really couldn't

I didn't know

I didn't know that all those years I was smiling

You were hurting inside and out

I didn’t know

I didn’t know all those times I looked at you smiled

That

That you wouldn’t be here

I didn’t know that one day you wouldn’t be around anymore

I didn’t know that after all the time that passed by I would still cry hearing your name

I didn’t know

I didn't know

I didn’t know going home to my mom would be hard because she doesn’t know

She doesn’t know

I cry and panic because I don’t have you

She doesn’t know that I went crazy without you

She doesn’t know

You would’ve known

I didn’t know

I didn’t know that when you called that Saturday that it would’ve be last time without you  

I didn’t know

I didn’t know that going home that day would be the last time

I didn’t know calling your phone that you were gone.

You

You were alone

I didn’t know

I didn’t know

I should’ve known

I should’ve known

But you were better

You said you were better

I didn’t think that the other day I would be tattooing your name as RIP or anything

I didn’t know

I didn't know

I didn’t know that I’d cry at my graduation  because you couldn’t see me shine that day

I didn’t know that getting married would be so hard because you couldn’t give me away.

I didn’t know  

I didn’t know that looking at pictures of  your face would make me think I wouldn’t be able to thank you for all those things

I didn’t know

I didn’t know