Chara's backstory

Grief

Warning: strong language

There were many yellow dots and sparkles. Slowly the blurry particles transformed into flowers.Golden flowers. There were so many of them.  There was a huge flower bed at the end of the village right next to the orphanage. The road ended right there.

The car stopped. Chara hated this village but there was something about it that he couldn't deny: The village was very beautiful. What the villagers didn't have in them, the flowers had more than enough: The beauty of their innocence.

"Jessica... I never told you before, but..."

"Come on kid, I know it's hard but there's no other way. Come on out"

He felt someone pull gently on his arm. He stepped slowly out of the car. There was this building and this woman, his former caretaker. Jessica told him he would never have to see this woman again.

"Oh, Chara. I'm so sorry  about what happened to you. Poor little boy!" she said. She was faking her emotions so obviously, it made Chara feel nausea.

Liar.

"YOU DON'T FEEL ANYTHING! I'D RATHER BE DEAD THAN FORCED TO LIVE AROUND YOU IN THIS GARBAGE DUMP THAT YOU CALL ORPHANAGE". Chara yelled without even thinking about it. He wanted so badly to hurt her in some way. The void in his stomach was still aching. He wanted to blame someone for Jessica's death.

"Chara, how horrible! I always tried to make your stay comfortable here! I know that you're only acting like this because you lost Mrs. Parker. But it's going to be..."

"I'm sorry to interrupt, but we are here not only to bring Chara back to the orphanage. We have an arrest warrant for you and your colleagues for mistreating minors. Also for one of your colleagues who we identified as one of the radicals who incinerated the asylum." the taller policeman said.

Chara's head became red and his vision became blurred again. He felt as his heart came up to his throat. It was beating faster than ever. Not even one second had passed and Chara was already on top of the woman punching her with all his might. One of the policeman tried to get Chara off of the caretaker, whom he had punched so hard in the face that she had swollen lips and a few purple marks on her forehead. Two men were necessary to hold Chara back while an other man put handcuffs on the woman's wrists.

"This is outrageous! You should arrest this naughty brat! Don't you see it?! He'll become a psychopath! That's what I'm trying to prevent!"

They put the woman in the car. Soon two other police cars came. 4 policemen stepped out of them and entered the orphanage to arrest the rest of the caretakers.

Chara kept fighting the men who were trying to hold him back. He didn't care that it wasn't her who was involved in the crime. He just needed to let go everything he was holding back for the past 4 years. Every single injure he's got from her belt. Every single insult she has thrown at him. He needed to give it back.

Soon the policemen came out with all of the caretakers. One of them laughed disturbingly. The woman had black long hair, pale skin and dark circles.

"It was me indeed. I killed all these abominations from hell. Now they're all perishing in fire, for all eternity!"

The policemen looked at the woman with curiosity and didn't notice that Chara got away from their grip.

Chara picked up a big rock from the ground and ran towards the woman. The men got a hold of him before Chara could do anything. She seemed to be satisfied to see Chara revolted.  

"You're next! Soon you'll join them you little abomination! HAHAHAHAHAHA"

"I'M GOING TO KILL YOU! I'LL KILL YOU WITH MY BARE HANDS YOU FUCKING WHORE! LET ME GO!" One of the policemen grabbed him and held him above the ground. The woman kept laughing.

Now that Chara finally found the culprit he couldn't do anything about it. This made him feel worse than ever. Right in front of him there was the woman who killed Jessica Parker, the woman who was more than a psychologist, more than his adoptive mother. She was his best friend. The only person Chara truly loved has been teared away from him by some maniacs. Losing someone was faster and more unexpected that he could ever imagine. He never imagined himself grieving upon a loss. From one day to another his life has turned upside down. He felt like the ground under his feet vanished. Like he would fall for all eternity. 

Chara lost his movements. He just stood there looking with an empty expression to the ground.

"Jessica, what I wanted to tell you is that... I care about you. I care about you so much... WHY DIDN'T I TELL YOU?!" 

Her big green eyes and her heartwarming smile. Chara would never see them again. He would never hear her melodic laugh and her calming voice again. It was gone. A day ago it was all still there, right before his eyes and now it would never ever return.

It could not be gone though. Chara needed to find her again. Chara needed to be with her. This couldn't be it. This couldn't be the end.

The caretakers were taken away. He heard the cars behind him driving away but he didn't turn around. Suddenly Chara heard voices that he had never heard before. Someone was talking to the policemen. Some people that seemed to have come out of nowhere went inside the orphanage. One of them put their hands on his shoulder.

"You'll never have to see these people again. We're the new caretakers."

He heard the voice of a young woman. But he did not care. He kept staring to the ground hopelessly.

"Easy on him, he'll need time to recover. Something awful happened to him just today."

Two month later everything was quite different. Some things were exactly like before but it still felt new. He was living at his old orphanage which was now at least ten times better than before.

He and the other children finally had good and healthy meals, there were many new activities and no more beat-ups. But none of this mattered to him. The caretakers were nice but Chara still didn't want to socialize. They respected him and his personal space. He was also back to his old school. The kids were strangely nice to him, like never before. But Chara would prefer if they just ignored him. He isolated himself. In recess he always stayed in the classroom and read his book about monster history. He was now on page 978.

He heard steps from outside. Someone came into the classroom. He slightly lowered his book to clear his eyesight and looked at the door. There she was, the little blond girl with blue eyes.

Amy was apprehensive but she overcame her fear and took one step closer. Chara stared at her without expressing emotions. For a few seconds they kept staring at each other. She closed her hands into fists as if to say that she overcame all of her fears. She walked directly towards him. She took a chair and put it right next to him. Then she sat down. Chara let out a sigh.

"I was always curious about this mysterious book you're reading."

"Kids story, nothing special."

"Is that so? I don't know if you have noticed, but I'm a kid. And someone should remind you that you're a kid too." she said with a smile.

"Hmph"

Chara kept reading as if she wasn't there. Somehow he wasn't feeling uncomfortable around her. Although his memories of Amy weren't the best she was the only other human being that he socialized with in the past. This reminded him of Jessica. He felt his heart tighten. It was like his heart came up his throat again. It hurt very much. He felt his eyes become wet and he couldn't hold it back anymore. He started to cry. It was the first time he cried since Jessica was gone. Previously he was full of rage and hatred but now he only felt sadness. Endless grief. He cried as if he was purifying his heart of all the hatred he felt. As if, after every tear he shed, he became more and more empty. The only thing he wanted was to feel his adoptive mother's arms around him again.

And he felt someone's arms. He cried even more because he knew that they weren't Jessica's. But even so, he hugged back.