They say I’m too young to love you
But I’m not
They say I need to find myself before I commit to you
But I can’t
They say I’m too far gone
But the worst thing is I know they’re right
You tell me to keep fighting
But I can’t
You tell me I’m strong
But I’m not
You tell me to be who I want to be
But you don’t understand
I tell myself I can’t love you
But I’m wrong
I tell myself I’m weak
But I know I’m not
I tell myself to walk away
So I do
I know that if I stay it will destroy me
I don’t want to leave you
I tell myself you’re Liam Payne
You can go places
But I’m Zayn Malik the Bradford bad boy
I tell myself I’ll be the one who fail’s out of the whole band
Sometimes when Louis and Harry look at each other I wonder if you ever look at me like that
But then I remind myself I’ve seen you look at me like that
I hope that one day you will forgive me for walking away from the opportunity to be with you
The day before I made my decision to leave I was called into a meeting
They said I couldn’t be with you
They said they was going to get me a cover up girlfriend
I told Louis and Harry say they both said I should refuse to have a beard as they called it
So I did but then I got told that I would have to leave if I didn’t do the right thing
I chose the easy way out
I left you behind
I gave Louis a note to give you
When I left I didn’t take my mobile
Because you gave it to me
In the note it said
‘Hey Li,
I know you told me to keep fighting for us, but I can’t anymore, it’s slowly destroying me and I don’t think you should have to see that happen to me, you was always the stronger one out of us both, I was the weak one the one who gave up even if I didn’t mean to but this time, I’m giving up because it’s the right thing to do, I will still come and visit you and the boys, I might even come to some of your concerts if I can get another job to save some money up, maybe I’ll go to college or maybe even university, I guess I haven’t really thought it through yet but I’ll do something to keep my mind of everything that’s happened.
Love Z x’
An hour later
When I arrived in Bradford I smiled because it was good to finally be somewhere familiar, somewhere I knew I could be myself without being judge.
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