My One Direction One Shots (open for requests)

What they say (Ziam)

They say I’m too young to love you

But I’m not

They say I need to find myself before I commit to you

But I can’t

They say I’m too far gone

But the worst thing is I know they’re right

You tell me to keep fighting

But I can’t

You tell me I’m strong

But I’m not

You tell me to be who I want to be

But you don’t understand

I tell myself I can’t love you

But I’m wrong

I tell myself I’m weak

But I know I’m not

I tell myself to walk away

 So I do

I know that if I stay it will destroy me

I don’t want to leave you

I tell myself you’re Liam Payne

You can go places

But I’m Zayn Malik the Bradford bad boy

I tell myself I’ll be the one who fail’s out of the whole band

Sometimes when Louis and Harry look at each other I wonder if you ever look at me like that

But then I remind myself I’ve seen you look at me like that

I hope that one day you will forgive me for walking away from the opportunity to be with you

The day before I made my decision to leave I was called into a meeting

They said I couldn’t be with you

They said they was going to get me a cover up girlfriend

I told Louis and Harry say they both said I should refuse to have a beard as they called it

So I did but then I got told that I would have to leave if I didn’t do the right thing

I chose the easy way out

I left you behind

I gave Louis a note to give you

When I left I didn’t take my mobile

Because you gave it to me

In the note it said

‘Hey Li,

I know you told me to keep fighting for us, but I can’t anymore, it’s slowly destroying me and I don’t think you should have to see that happen to me, you was always the stronger one out of us both, I was the weak one the one who gave up even if I didn’t mean to but this time, I’m giving up because it’s the right thing to do, I will still come and visit you and the boys, I might even come to some of your concerts if I can get another job to save some money up, maybe I’ll go to college or maybe even university, I guess I haven’t really thought it through yet but I’ll do something to keep my mind of everything that’s happened.

Love Z x’

An hour later

When I arrived in Bradford I smiled because it was good to finally be somewhere familiar, somewhere I knew I could be myself without being judge.