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Dear Zayn (Ziam)

Dear Zayn,

I know today is your wedding day, but I had to write this letter because I had to let you know how I feel, because I know if I don’t I will regret it for the rest of my life, I tell myself that if you reject me after this I will properly people to handle it, but in reality I know that won’t be the case because it the last for years that I’ve known you, I’ve given every single minute of my day to try and keep you happy, but I guess you only wanted Perrie, but I still keep hope in my heart that this letter will help change your mind.

I know I was going to be your best man but I don’t think I can, not if you reject me so I’m going home until the wedding’s over and after the stadium tour I’m leaving the band, because I don’t think I could deal with knowing that you’re married to someone who will properly never love you as much as I love you, but just in case you do change your mind you know my number and you know where I was live.

I know you’re properly wondering why I’m telling you this now, but I couldn’t tell you before because all you ever talked about was how perfect Perrie was and I couldn’t ruin what we had, but there’s only so much I can take and I guess you could say I broke, that’s exactly what I am Zayn without you I’m broken, maybe you’ll be the one to save me or maybe you’ll be the one to completely break me down more than I already am, but either way I know that you will always be the one I’ll love.

Lots of love, Liam Payne.

As I sat reading Liam’s letter I couldn’t help but think ‘ I loved you all this time’ but then I remember what my mum once told me ‘don’t let your emotions run your life’ so I kept pushing back the emotions that Liam held in me and I kept fighting but maybe now’s the time to stop fighting, as I sat thinking of what I should do, there was a knock at the door, when I answered it Harry was stood there crying, without even hesitating or asking what was wrong I grabbed him in an hug because I knew somehow it had to do with Louis, when he finally pulled away I said ‘what's happened’ he smiled and said ‘it don’t matter, it’s not that important’ when he got tears in his eyes I said ‘tell me he didn’t bring her to the wedding’ Harry nodded and said ‘they’re sat next to me’ I hugged him and said ‘ no they’re not because there isn’t a wedding’ he looked up surprised and said ‘what do you mean there isn’t a wedding’ I smiled and said ‘Liam’s not here to marry me so I’m not getting married’ Harry smiled because he knew all about my feelings for Liam and he said’ well what are you waiting for I’ll tell everyone where you’re going’ I hugged him again and said ‘thanks Harry’ he pulled away and said ‘it’s okay, but you might want to run because they aren’t going to let you go that easy you know’ before he even finished I started running until I got to my car and just as I was pulling away I saw Perrie coming out the church and when she saw me drive off she waved to me and smiled, she didn’t look like a girl who cared that she’d just been ditched at an alter so  I waved back.

After what felt like hours of driving I finally arrived at Liam’s, as soon as I was parked up I jumped out of the car and knocked on his door and he was the one who opened it, but when he saw me, he just said ‘Harry text me saying you left Perrie’ I nodded and said ‘it wouldn’t have been a wedding without you there, please Liam don’t shut that door’ before I even finished he had shut the door in my face, as soon as he did I knocked again but he s=just shouted for me to go away, so I turned and walked away but before I could reach my car, I felt my legs give out and I realised I was crying, but couldn’t feel anything, I felt so numb it hurt, as I tried to get back up, I just fell straight back to floor so I didn’t bother trying again, I just laid there and cried until, I couldn’t cry no more.

After what felt like hours of just laid curled up in a ball outside my car I tried to get up again but I just kept falling, I started getting angry because I couldn’t stay here forever but I just sat outside my car as I waited another hour I heard a door open but I didn’t look up I just kept my head down and I just sobbed into my knees, I didn’t even hear Liam sit down next to me until he said ‘what are you still doing here Zayn’ I kept my head down as I said ‘I can’t move Liam, ,my legs won’t help me stand up’ he just chuckled and said ‘Zayn you do realize it’s raining right and your sat in the street’ I looked up to see it raining, I cant believe I didn’t even realize, I stared into the sky and as I was staring I felt someone pull me into their arms and I just let them because I felt safe, I knew that if I looked I would see Liam so I looked to see him watching me, I tried to smile but I couldn’t, I just felt numbness, as I looked at him I could feel tears run gently down my face, I now know what it feels to be broken, but I just couldn’t look away from his brown eyes, I forgot how beautiful they was, it’s been a week since I last saw him, but I forgot what his eyes look like, as I thought that I cried harder and he just cradled me to his chest until I calmed down a bit, when I spoke my voice was raspy from crying but I managed to say ‘I’m so sorry Liam, I never even wanted to marry Perrie but I felt like that’s what everyone else expected of me, if I knew that you loved me I would have left Perrie without thinking twice because since the first time I laid eyes on you’ I felt him nod his head, but I couldn’t look him in the eye instead I tried to get up but he wouldn’t let me, so I said ‘Liam, if I’m going to leave your going to have to let me go’ as I said that he let me go but as I got up my legs just went again, but this time I felt Liam catch me before I hit the ground and I felt him carry me into the house but I couldn’t see because I had tears stroll down my face, in the background I could hear Karen say ‘is he ok’ I felt Liam shake his head and his mum said ‘I remember that time you came home you was the exact same as him, it was like you had lost all the feeling in your body, so please Liam for the sake of you both don’t push him away anymore’ I heard Liam say ‘I couldn’t even if I tried’ I heard his mum say ‘I’m gonna go to the shop so talk to him’ I felt Liam nod again.

When I finally calmed down Liam said ‘I’m sorry Zayn’ I looked at him and said ‘no Liam I’m the one who’s sorry I should have told you four years ago how I felt instead of pushing my feelings away because now I know what it feels like to be broken’ Liam smiled and said ‘well I can help fix you if you let me’ I smiled and said ‘I’d like that just as long as you let me fix you up too’ he smiled and said ‘always’ after he finished talking I kissed him with all the love I had in my body and he did the same.

A year later

Today is mine and Liam’s wedding, it turns out people are very accepting these days of same sex relationships, I just wish I’d have known that 5 years ago when I had first met Liam because maybe today we would already be married, as I walked down the aisle Macklemore and Ryan Lewis ft. Mary Lambert’s ‘Same love’ was playing, Harry had introduced me to this song when he was still with Louis, I haven’t seen Harry since yesterday but he text me saying he was at the church and as I walked down the aisle I saw him looking at Louis but when he saw me he smiled, I always wondered what had happened to those two to make them break up, they used to be the strongest couple ever, but then something changed in them and all they did was argue, as I reached Liam at the bottom of the aisle I smiled and gently kissed his cheek and said ‘you look absolutely amazing’ he winked and said ‘right back at ya’ I chuckled and then turned to face the front and I listened as the vicar talked and when it was our time me and Liam said our vows and then it got to the ‘ you may now kiss the groom’ part, I put as much love into the kiss that I could and so did Liam, after the kiss we all walked outside and I threw the bouquet into the crowd of people and when I looked around it was Harry who had caught it, I smiled at him and he smiled back then he turned and left.

After the wedding the band broke up Niall became a solo artist, though he never did do the Christian rap album he promised people, Louis and Harry never did get back together, I think that might have been the reason that he disappeared after the wedding, but I can’t be sure, he still hasn’t showed up, his mum tells me, she feels like something bad might have happened but I don’t want to think that because maybe she’s wrong, but then again they say a mothers instincts are always right, after Harry disappeared Louis went off the rails, in the end he ended up killing himself with drugs and alcohol, whenever people used to try and help him he’d say ‘you’re not Harry’ so after a year of helping him everyone gave up hope and then he was gone, after the police found his body at his and Harry’s old flat they found Harry had died in a car accident the year before, but they say he was too badly injured to be identified so they just buried him as a Jane Doe, but when we found out where he was buried, the police dug him up and we had a double funeral for him and Louis and they was buried together and on their shared tombstone it said ‘here lies Harry Edward Styles and Louis William Tomlinson, the two best friends, two lovers, two sons, two uncles, two grandsons and two band mates from the band One Direction’ every time anyone goes to the grave they say it feels like they can feel the love they have for each other through the whole cemetery, I sometimes find myself thinking the same thing.

Two years after me and Liam got married we adopted 2 kids, but a month after Liam fell ill and 3 months after he lost his fight with the illness and I couldn’t bear life without him  but I pushed through for the sake of him, when he was buried I asked if he could be buried next to Harry and Louis so they would be together.

20 years after Liam died I began to get ill but I ignored it, but then it turns out I needed treatment to survive but when I realized it was too late and that year I left two beautiful children behind.