Blend (Kellic)

Chapter 9

I haven't been this tired in such a long time. Tonight, Alan and I went out. There was still no sign of Justin. I was mad at Alan and Justin for involving me in their lives the way they did. I didn't sleep at all yesterday, and after a long night of sex with David (the guy who gave me his number), I didn't get to catch up on the sleep I missed.

So here I am, getting fucked by some guy whose name I forgot, and I'm not being enthusiastic whatsoever. At one point in the beginning of our session, I had to try and force myself from falling asleep. That was proven difficult because he dragged out foreplay so I became tired easier. He was moaning and groaning, trying to get me in the mood. Usually I would do the same with a little bit of dirty talk on the side, but right now I was barely even hard, even though I had a dick inside me.

"Are you just going to lay there?! I'm not paying you for nothing," he said, sounding irritated. I don't blame him, I would be too.

"Sorry, I'm just tired," I said, sounding half alive. He pulled out of me and looked at me annoyed.

"Fine then. Just get out," he said. He got off of me and moved to the side so I could gather my clothes. I was going to ask for my money, but he spoke before I could.

"And I'm not giving you money either because that was a waste of time," he said. I guess I saw that coming. I put my clothes on sluggishly, his hard stare never left me. I went to the door exit and walked out of the hotel room. I exited the hotel after riding the elevator to the lobby floor.

I caught a cab home, not wanting to use the little bit of energy I have to walk back like I usually would. All the way home I had to try not to fall asleep, but it was proven hard. I've always thought car rides were peaceful, so I tend to fall asleep a lot during them. But since it was a short ride, I didn't want to fall asleep since I'd just have to get right back up.

As soon as I made it to my house, I crashed on my bed. It was about 2 in the morning and I couldn't be more tired right now. I was about to fall into a deep sleep, when I hear the sounds of my studio buzzer going off.

I contemplated if I wanted to answer it or not, but a second later, my phone was ringing. I searched for it in my pockets after some difficulty due to drowsiness.

"Hello," I answered in a raspy tired voice.

"Kellin, please answer your door," Justin's voice spoke, his voice cracking making it apparent that he had been crying.

"Okay give me a second," I said before hanging up the phone to buzz him in. I had to mentally prepare myself for the drama that is soon to come. Don't get me wrong, I love my best friends. But they get stuck in stupid drama.

I heard a frantic knock on my door and went to open it. Instantly I was pulled into a hug by Justin. He sighed deeply, his head buried in my chest.

"Come on Justin, what's going on?" I asked him, trying to pry him off me.

"I'm quitting," He said pulling away from me and staring me into my eyes. I can tell by the way he's looking at me, he isn't joking about this either.

"What do you mean, quitting?" I ask.

"I'm done with all this. I can't take it anymore," he said, voice cracking at the end of his sentence.

"So just because of a little trouble in paradise you're all of a sudden quitting?" I ask, no sympathy at all.

"Yes, that exactly right."

"You know you can't do anything with your life, right? You haven't been to school since you dropped out of high school, you have no further college education, and no experience in anything else. So tell me Justin what do you plan on doing?"

"I don't- I don't know. I haven't thought that far ahead yet," he said sounding defeated.

"You better figure something out, because you aren't going to be mooching off of me and Alan forever," I say harshly. Sometimes Alan says I'm too rough on Justin, but he's got to get the reality to set in before he makes a decision. He came into this industry knowing what he'd be getting into, so now he can't quit.

"I know, I know."

"Do you really?" I ask.

"Yes. I do," he says like he is really thinking about what I said and realizing I'm right.

"So if you are going to quit, what do you plan on doing?" I ask.

"Going back to high school for adults. I'm going to start over and put all this behind me. Jesse doesn't deserve me," he said. I don't even know the full extent of their drama, nor do I want to know, but Justin is pretty dramatic and bases decisions off of how he feels instead of the logical conclusion.

"Go to sleep Just. Think about this for a while before you make up your mind," I said going back to my bed. I check my phone one last time before I go to sleep and see I have a message from a certain someone.

Vic: I saw a man pick up a skank-y looking whore about two minutes ago and it made me think of you. Hope you're doing alright.

And I never smiled so bright wanting to laugh at anything relevant to my job ever. It made me fall asleep in peace for once.

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