Love and Fame

Chapter 36 - No

(Meghan's POV)

January first 2011, new year, new me. Bitchhhhh you might've thought. I'm the same me, I'm not changing for anybody.

Marshall lately has been acting strange. Like I've been seeing him talking to himself, I have no problem with it, but it's kinda weird.

Today we're staying in Marshall's house, and the girls went to Kim's around 11:30. So we have the house to ourselves. I'm very lazy today, I'm wearing grey sweats, and a black sweater. All I've been doing today so far is being on my laptop, and drinking coffee while Marshall is in the studio.

I placed my cup of coffee on the coffee table, and adjusted myself on the couch the way I was comfortable. Marshall walked out of the studio, and sat next to me on the couch. Marshall placed his armaround me holding me by my waist, and cuddled up on me.

"What ya doing?" Marshall asked

"Online shopping" I said, and continued scrolling through pages of clothing.

"Cools" Marshall said, and laid his head on my shoulder. Marshall then started kissing my neck.

"Marshall I know what you want, no" I said, and took his lips off my neck.

"C'mon why not? Don't you love me?" Marshall said

"Marshall I love you but I think you forgot you cheated on me. Even if I was comfortable with doing it, your gonna have to wait till I'm ready" I said looking at him.

"I thought we were starting fresh" Marshall said, and I can start to here the annoyance in his voice.

"Yeah but Marshall still, I'm not ready" I said, and closed my laptop putting it on the coffee table.

"Not ready? Meghan goddamnit we've been together for what almost five months now? And your still not ready?!" Marshall started to argue.

"Marshall I really don't want to argue right now" I said, and started walking upstairs.

"Meghan I'm talking to you! Can't you just hear me out?" Marshall semi-yelled. I just kept walking upstairs. I reached the last stair at the top, and walked into the bedroom. Marshall soon walked in behind me.

"Marshall I said I don't want to argue" I said sitting on the bed.

"I'm not arguing, I'm just saying, how long is it going to take Meghan?!" Marshall started to yell. I stood up from the bed, and got in his face.

"Don't fucking yell at me" I said seriously in his face.

"What? I can't ask when I'm gonna be able to do it with my GIRLFRIEND, for crying out aloud" Marshall yelled back.

"Why can't you be a GOOD BOYFRIEND and wait till I'm ready?!" I yelled back at him. Marshall walked away, and started walking to the bathroom.

"Maybe I should've let you leave" Marshall mumbled under his breath, thinking I couldn't hear him.

"Hmm? What? Maybe you should've let me leave? Marshall if that's what you fucking want I'll gladly leave again, but this time I won't forgive you" I said standing at the bathroom door frame.

"Then why don't you!? It's obvious you don't love me, if we haven't done it yet" Marshall said, and rolled his eyes.

"I don't love you? Look who forgave your ass when you cheated!" I said, and stood quiet for a second.

"You know what, whatever. This isn't gonna work out, so I'm going to get my shit, and leave" I said, and walked away from the bathroom to get my things. I grabbed my suitcase out of the closet, and Marshall pushed it out of the way.

"No" Marshall said

"Isn't this what you want? You can fuck any girl you want, and if you get an STD don't even think about coming back to me" I said, and went for my suitcase again but Marshall pushed it further back with his foot. I started to walk out of the room, and Marshall grabbed me by the waist with both of his hands.

"It's not what I meant" Marshall said, pulling me closer to his body.

"Yeah right" I said, and started to break down. "I'm trying Marshall, but you don't know how it was when I was with Mark, so you don't know how I feel. With you pressuring me, I feel like I'm back with Mark, who was forcing me to do it with him" I said, trying to wipe away my tears, but they kept falling. Marshall turned me, and hugged me. He kissed my forehead, and wiped my tears away.

"I'm sorry" Marshall said, and kissed my forehead again.

"Marshall just please give me time" I said, wiping away tears that were falling.

"I will, I'm sorry. I love you" Marshall said kissing my forehead again, and held me close to his body.

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