{ Hickeys m.g.c. }

{ Chapter 16 }

"I can't lose you too, I need you here. I can't lose you."

I woke up to the sound of murmuring, beeping, and a heavy pressure on my chest. I breathe in but I end up coughing really badly and the pressure was finally lifted off. I open my eyes and I see Luke on my chest and around the room was Jess, Michael, and Aspyn. It didn't take long until I noticed I was in a hospital room. Before I could say anything Jess threw herself onto me, making me cough even more. "Oh shit sorry, I'm so glad you're awake." I hear her voice quivering and my eyes start to water again.

Wearily I look up at her, "I'm here don't worry, I'm not planning on leaving anytime soon." I wipe a tear off her face and smile. I lean back at look at the people surrounding me. Everyone looks tired from exhaustion and most look soaked from the rain. I wasn't surprised when Michael left the room, I looked up at Aspyn as she started walking towards me. She had a look of guilt on her face.

"What's wrong, is everything ok?"

"I feel bad for not being around anymore," she pushed her hair back and covered her face "ever since I caught you with Michael. I-I'm sorry." Her voice was quavering and sat in the seat beside me. Seeing her like this completely tore me. I never wanted to see her like this. Not crying. Not like this.

"Aspyn. You've known me since birth. You can't keep doing this. Michael isn't going to be the reason we break apart. You didn't do anything."

She looks up at me with streaks of makeup coming down her face. I laugh at her looking such a mess and she joins in too. But I, again, had a coughing fit which accidently stirred up the sleeping child on my stomach. I try and lure him back to sleep by running my fingers through his hair. We've been exhausted the whole day and he never got a chance to fully recover from what's been happening. It all came too fast.

"You're so lucky to have someone like him."

I look back at Aspyn, "What do you mean?

""Cut the crap Cass. He's fallen for you. Hard. And if you can't notice that, then you need to open your eyes." I stare back at Luke.

"She's right, don't lose him." Jess joins in from looking out the window. "Don't lose him like I did."

Fuck Calum

"Jess don't blame yourself. He said that it wasn't your fault. I'm sure he'll come back." I sigh "He has to come back."

"He just left my house Cass! I could've stopped him! This is my fault. It's all my fault."

By now I'm bubbling with anger and frustration. "Stop! Ok stop! Jess he clearly said it isn't your fault you need to stop beating yourself up. I'm tired of people blaming themselves for something that couldn't have been stopped. First Calum, then Aspyn, now you. Stop with the guilt. You didn't do anything." I raised my voice trying to get my point clear to both of them without hurting my voice and waking up Luke.

Jess looks straight up at me. "What do you mean 'first Calum'. What did he say."

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I was back at my house after spending the night at the hospital. I was half surprised that my mom or dad wasn't at the hospital but they usually aren't around much to hear stuff like this. I head up to my room and kick off my shoes near the doorway. I sit down on my bed and look around my room. The whole room was lit by the gray skies and filled with the sounds of the rain. The pale bright yellow walls was now dull and the white turned to gray. I stare up at the ceiling, looking at the painted clouds in front of the pale blue sky. I turn to my side and now stare at the wall near the window and look at the pictures covering it. The pictures that was filled only with tears of happiness and pain from laughter. Not the pain and tears we felt today. I cling to the blanket as I shiver and close my eyes again sleeping away all of my problems, not wanting to ever think about them.

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