Anime lemons/one shots : requests

FT: Loki x Reader (part 2)

'The Lions Heart'

Days turned into weeks. Weeks turned into months. My broken heart ceased to fix. Missing him was permanent. Heartache continuous. I couldn't move on, but I wanted to. God only knows how I wanted to.

I wanted to be able to go into the guild hall and actually face Loke without breaking into tears. Wanted to look at Lucy and not feel hatred for her taking away the one person I loved. Wanted the butterflies to return to my stomach when other guys flirted with me. I just wanted to be normal again.

But I couldn't. Not when his face was permanently imprinted in my memory. Not when his face was all I saw when I closed my eyes. I loved him and I could never stop.

"Oi (y/n)" Natsu shouted across the guildhall at me. "Your coming on a job with us!"

"Don't order her!" Erza scolded, her fist making contact with Natsu.

I was still sat there consumed by heartache to care about what was transpiring. I barely even noticed that Erza was currently standing next to me trying to explain about the so called job I would be helping them with.

"....so you see we will need someone with your magic ability to help us out with this particular mission" Erza concluded and I finally sat up in a daze.

"Couldn't you always take Juvia along with you instead? Her magic is at least 10x stronger than mine. Or even Wendy? her support magic is unparalleled." I explain.

I hoped my reasoning would be enough to convince her. Going on a mission with Erza and Natsu meant going with Lucy. Going with Lucy meant at one point I would have to see Loke, and seeing Loke was something I just wouldn't be able to do.

"Under normal circumstances I would have to agree with you, but not this time. Your unique style of elemental manipulation magic is exactly what is required to complete the task. And of course we'd be willing to split the 500,000 Jewel reward with you" She told me

500,000 jewels, that meant 100,000 each. Right now I could use the money. I haven't paid any of my bills yet and that money would cover them all. As much I wanted to avoid Lucy I needed the money.

"What's the job for?" I ask. Knowing deep down I'm going to regret going. I just never realised how much.

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"I'm so glad you decided to come with us!" Lucy squealed as we all boarded the train.

"Well it was Erza who asked, couldn't really say no" I shrugged, hoping I could just slide into my seat and she would ignore me. I was only here to help capture the bandits and decipher some form of a code. That was the main reason I was here ; the code cracking instead of my fighting ability.

"I've missed you (y/n)" Lucy sighed as she slid into the seat next to me.
"Why did you stop coming to guild? We girls missed you"

"What do you mean? How do you not know?" I asked genuinely curious. I thought it would have been obvious.

"Well I wondered if I had done something to upset you. I figured seeing as you stopped talking to me the day after I kicked off at the whole guild, so I figured you took it harder than everyone else. But in all honesty I haven't quite known how to apologise for it" She rambled on

How did she not know about Loki and I? I thought Loki would have surely told her about us. Or was I that big of an embarrassment he kept me hidden from her. Or did he not tell her we weren't together anymore?

"It's fine Lucy really. I'll promise to come see you around more" I tell her.

My brain was too preoccupied trying to figure out why exactly she didn't know. Was I really that unimportant to Loke he didn't even mention us to Lucy. The longer the train ride, the more I thought about Loke. Pretty soon I could feel my own tears starting to form.