When We Broke-up

4

HER

Nakaupo ako ngayon sa wheelchair na ito. Gusto ko ng maglakad pero hindi eh. Hindi pwede.

"M-Miggy..."

He looked at me and smiled weakly and lumapit sa akin at ihinarap sa kanya ang wheelchair.

"Bakit Maine?"

Napayuko ako. Ewan ko kung papayagan niya ako pero alam ko naman na mahal ako ni Miggy at alam ko na papayag siya. Syempre pinapaasa mo si Miggy eh!

"G-Gusto ko na sanang umuwi sa amin. Sa Philippines. Pati family ko nag-aalala kung nasaan ako ngayon..."

He smiled and caressed my face but I looked away. Nagbuntong-hininga na lang siya at ngumiti ng mapait.

"If that's what you want. Bakit ko naman ipagkakait diba?"

I smiled weakly and nanuod ulit ng TV. I miss Philippines and I miss my family. And I know they miss me too.

Kamusta na kaya si Matti? I'm sure na sobrang cute niya. Sayang at hindi ko siya nakita lumaki.

And one of the main reasons why I need to go home it to see him. Titignan ko lang kung mahal niya pa ako. Kung hindi edi go, I'm letting him go.

But kung mahal niya pa ako bibigay nanaman ba ako? Mahuhulog nanaman pa ako sa kanya?

Mahuhulog nanaman ba ako sa isang taong nang-iwan at nanakit sa akin? Ganun ba ako katanga sa kanya? Ganito ba nagagawa ng pag-ibig?

"Maine, may kaibigan kasi akong Piloto. Kelan mo ba gustong umalis para maka-book na."

I took a deep breathe and looked at him eye to eye. And looked away too.

"Bukas."

"Bukas?! Bakit naman agad agad?"

Because I miss him. I miss him more than he could imagine. i miss him so much it hurts. I think of him in everything I do, everywhere I go. It's like he's stuck in my head and he just won't get out, and the worst part is. I know how happy he is without me.

"Ayoko na dito Miggy, I hope you understand."

He smiled at me and kinuha ang phine niya at umalis muna. I think tatawagan niya na ang kaibigan niyang Piloto.

I miss him, his tight hugs and long sweet kisses. The kind of kisses that I never wanted to end. I miss his hands on my hips and him rubbing my back without being asked. I miss the long nights laying on his chest while he played with my hair. i miss him being pressed against me while he kisssed my neck because he knew it gave me butterflies. But that was the past and I think he already moved on.

I took a deep breathe. Looked through the window. See you tomorrow Philippines.

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HIM

I packed all my things and stuff. Si Mama Ten sleeping beauty parin hanggang ngayon and I know naman na stress siya sa akin.

So ako na nag-impake lahat ng gamit niya. Bawi lang dahil sa ginawa ko kahapon sa concert.

"Ma, huy gising na. Malalate na tayo sa flight."

I saw him open his eyes and I smiled at lumabas muna sa kwarto niya. I sitted on my bed at inalabas ang picture ni Maine.

I smiled and kissed her pic. I miss her so much. Sana bumalik na siya, sana makita ko na siya.

Oh God, tell her i miss her, tell him I need her, tell her I want her, really want her to come back home. back to keep me warm.

"Alden, halika na. Buti at nag-impake ka na. Thank you rin."

I smiled at Mama Ten at dinala na ang dapat dalhin.

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HER

Ngayon na ako aalis, si Miggy sabi niya ay dito muna siya dahil may dapat pa daw siyang asikasuhin sa trabaho.

"So, ingat ka dun Meng."

"I will. Thank you Miggy..."

Then he smiled at kissed my forehead at tinulak na ako ng isa sa mga staff papunta sa plane.

Hanggang dun na lang kasi si Miggy so hindi na ako maihahatid pa. Hindi rin ako pwedeng maglakad.

Here I come Philippines...

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HIM

Going back to the Philippines. Wala parin yung katabi ko sa eroplano. Nahiwalay si Mama Ten at napunta sa unahan.

Maya-maya na lang at lilipad na ang eroplano. Inalabas ko ulit ang picture ni Maine and hinalikan ito.

I miss you Love...

Whenever I miss her, I look at my heart. Because it's the only place I can find her.

Sana makita na talaga kita Maine, I can't live without you. I want her smiles her kisses her hugs her sweet voices and her cuddles.

"Escuse me."

Tinago ko ulit ang phone at nandito na ang katabi ko sa plane. Then I saw her feet. She's wearing a duck socks and I chuckled.

May tungkod din siya dala. Matanda na ba to?

Then when I looked at her. I frozed.

"M-Maine."

"RJ."