When We Broke-up

5

HER

Nanginig lahat ng buong katawan ko. This cant be. He's here infront of me. I want to hug him and kiss him at the same time.

"M-Maine."

"RJ."

I took a deep breathe and tried to sit down beside him kasi doon naman talaga ako naka-upo.

"You want some help?"

He asked and akmang tatayo para alalayan ako. Mas lalo siyang gumwapo. I miss my Love...

"Uhm, huwag na kaya ko na to."

I said then I just smiled and looked away. Paika-ika akong maglakad at akmang uupo na pero mas lalong sumakit ang binti ko.

"Ouch."

"Hayys, ang kulit mo eh. Let me help you."

He smiled. Then inalalayan ako umupo. I flushed and then I hold his biceps para maguide ako pag-upo. Mas lumaki ang biceps niya compare noon. Aish! Maharot ka Menggay. Hindi ka inaano.

"T-Thank you..."

I whispered and he looked at me and smiled. Namumula ang mga tenga niya at napasandal na lang.

I took a deep breathe. Oh RJ, I miss you. Finally makakasama kita in many hours.

Pwede mong sandalan ang balikat niya kapag matutulog ka na.

Jusko, ano nanaman ba iniisip ko? These past few days nagiging drama queen ako pero ano nangyayari sa akin?

Ganito ba kalakas ang epekto ni RJ sa akin? Ugh.

"Happy ka?"

I flushed and looked at him. He stared at me, from head to toe. Ano ba ginagawa mo RJ? I asked myself. Psh. Ano ba ginagawa niya.

"A little."

I said then he took a deep breathe at tumingin sa bintana. I want to hug him and tell him to hug me back but I cant.

Malamang baka nakamove-on na siya. Diba siya nang-iwan? Bitter ka nanaman Meng. I told myself.

"Ako kasi hindi eh..."

He said while looking at the window. I tried to ask why but ayoko. Nakakahiya eh.

"K-Kasi parang may kulang Lov--Meng..."

He took a deep breathe at sumandal na. He looked at me and smiled. His dimples. Ugh.

"A-Ano yung kulang?"

I asked and sumandal na lang. Pinagmasdan ko siya but I looked away na rin. Baka sabihin pa nito pinagpapantasyahan ko pa siya.

"Ewan ko. I felt empty, I felt sad and hurt at the same time."

"...I felt that after I left you."

O__O

Oh shocks ano ba pinagsasabi ng lalaking to?! He said he felt empty when he left you ganoin. Wait--inaano ba siya?!

"RJ..."

"Forget about that. So napano yang paa mo? Bakit ka nakatungkod?"

He said while looking at my feet. Then he looked at me again and smiled.

Nakakainlove lalo yung smile niya. Oh God, you know how much I love this man beside me.

"Nabangga ako eh. Katangahan. Hahaha kaya ito, pilay"

I laughed bitterly. And still remember that day. Noong nabangga ako.

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PAST

Pauwi na ako, iyak parin ng iyak. Akala ko ba mahal niya ako? Akala ko ba hindi siya bibitaw? Bakit ginawa niya sa akin ito?!

"He doesnt love you anymore Meng. He doesnt love me anymore..."

I told myself. Malakas ang ulan at 0 disability na sa labas. I can't see clearly.

Kasabay pa ang namamaga kong mga mata sa kakaiyak.

"RJ doesnt love me anymore..."

I said while driving and crying at the same time. I want to die right now.

Bakit ngayon pa? Sa 3rd anniversary pa namin? Akala ko pa naman ay susuyuin niya ako kasi nagalit ako pero malala pa pala ang nangyari.

Makikipagbreak na pala siya sa akin. Sinukuan na agad ako ng taong pinakamamahal ko.

*PEEEEEEEEEEEP*

O_O

*BOOOOOOOGSHHH*

******

PRESENT

I took a deep breathe and looked at him again, he keep staring at me. I want to look at him too but nakakahiya.

He hold my hand at lahat ng dugo ko ay nagsiakyatan sa mukha ko. I felt elecricity in his hands.

"I'm sorry..."

He whispered and I want to cry pero I shook my head and inalis ang kamay ko sa kanya.

Magiging tanga ka nanaman ba? Youre being stupid again. Paano kung mahulog ak ulit? Ano sasaktan ka nanaman niya?

Hindi ka ba napapagod?

I took a deep breathe and shook my head at the same time at napayuko. Napakamot na lang siya sa ulo niya at tumingin sa bintana

Awkward.

Napasapo na lang ako ng mukha then he looked at me again. He held my hand again.

"I want you back Meng..."

Agad agad? Kakakita pa lang namin ito na agad ang sasabihin niya? Syempre ganyan naman sa mga teleserye kung sino nang-iwan. Sila yung maghahabol. Ay bongga ano ako bida?

"H-Huh?"

Syempre pang best actress muna ako. Ano nanaman ba pinag-gagawa neto?!

"W-Wala..."

Sumandal na lamang siya at binitawan ang kamay ko at tumingin ulit sa bintana. Magulo siyang kausap.

******

HIM

Kung sineswerte ka nga naman oh. She's sitting behind me--sleeping. Nakasandal siya sa balikat ko.

I smiled a little bit and looked her face. I caressed it. She really are an angel, hinding-hindi ko na siya papakawalan pa.

Simula ngayon.

I want her to be mine again. She'll be mine and I can feel it. Hinawi ko ang buhok niya para mas lalo kong makita ang maala-anghel niyang mukha.

I want to kiss her pero pinigilan ko ang sarili ko. I love her so much...

I kissed her hair and umupo na maayos. I chuckled. Mahal na mahal talaga ako ng tadhana.

I looked at her again. Hinding hindi na kita papakawalan...