When We Broke-up

8

HER

I felt relieve when I entered this taxi, hindi ko na siya makikita, hindi ko na rin siya makakausap. It's a good thing na rin naman kasi I can move-on.

Some say its painful to wait someone. Some say its painful to forget someone. But the worst pain comes when you dont know whether to wait or forget. It hurts when you have someone in your heart but can't have in your arms.

Napatingin agad ako kay Manong dahil pinatugtog niya ang 'God Gave Me You'. I took a deep breathe, All it takes is 1 song to bring back 1,000 memories.

My heart was taken by him, broken by him, and now it is in pieces because of him.

I heard someone whisper your name, but when I turned around to see who it was, I was alone. Then I realized that it was my heart telling me that I miss you.

I took a deep breathe, tama naman ang ginawa ko ah? I miss him because I still love him. Pero kapag nakamove-on na ako, I'll forget him...

Distance means so little when someone means so much.

"Miss Maine, nandito na po tayo..."

Nakabalik ako sa diwa ko, nandito na pala ako sa Bulacan. Bakit ang bilis? Pinagmasdan ko ang bahay namin, may ilaw na kasi mag-uumaga na yata.

I giggled when I saw Dean standing outside, tinitignan at hinihintay kung sino ang lalabas sa sasakyan.

Lumabas ako--hawak parin ang saklay, then napatayo siya at tumakbo papunta sa akin, paiyak siya. Iyakin talaga to I giigled and open my arms.

"Ate!!!"

I giggled and hugged him, napatawa lang siya when he realized that he's already crying...

"Ikaw talaga, iyakin ka kahit kelan..."

"Ate naman eh!"

I hugged him again and kissed his forehead, then nakita ko na inilabas na ni Manong ang mga gamit ko. Hindi ko pa pala nababayaran.

"Ako na mag babayad ng pamasahe mo Ate.."

"Asus ikaw talaga, nalibre mo agad ako!"

Ginulo ko ang buhok niya then he giggled. I want to surpirse them so I entered the house. Ot was all dark.

"Ate, matulog ka muna sa room ko, aalis pa kasi ako."

I nodded then umakyat na kami sa kwarto niya, iba na rin ang itsura. More masculine hindi katulad dati. I giggled when I saw their picture on the ceiling, napakamot lang siya ng ulo.

"Gf mo moh?"

"Yes Ate.."

Napatawa lang ako, mukhang sweet na sweet talaga sila sa isa't-isa. I giggled when I saw him flushed, namumula siya when he stared at their picture.

"Sige na Ate, pahinga ka muna. Aalis muna ako. Bye!"

I nodded then humiga na ako, I have a plan. Since tulog pa lahat except kay Dean, susurprisahin ko sila...

******

HIM

I have learned that sometimes sorry is not enough. She actually have to change herself. The pain of having a broken heart is not so much as to kill you, yet not so little as to let you live.

All I can do everytime I miss her is to stare at her pictures and smile. I love her, I want her back. I caught myself smiling for no reason. Then I realized I was thinking of her--again.

I'm tired of missing you, I just want you right here by my side...

I took a deep breathe, When the night has come and the land's dark, when the moon is the only light we'll see, look at the stars; can you count them? I miss you that much.

"Den, okay ka lang ba?  Ano nangyayari sayo?"

Leysam asked then I just smiled sadly and shook my head, I just want to think of her. I did three things today; miss you, miss you and miss you.

"Wala to..."

He just nodded and pasimpleng tumingin kay Mama Ten at nagbuntong hininga, I want to forget her but I can't. I want her to be happy--but I can't let her go...I want her back again, I want her to tell me that she still loves me...

Before I sleep and after I wake up and all the hours in between...she occupy my mind. So, practically every moment of the day you are in my thoughts. I miss her--my Maine...

******

HER

I took a deep breathe and I fix my things, I heard of them laughing downstairs--they doesnt know that I'm already here...can't wait for their reaction.

Nagbihis na ako then I open the door, I saw them eating their breakfast.

"Dean akala ko ba ay umalis k--"

They all gasped when they saw me, I giggled then I hugged them all. I saw my Nanay crying, I wiped her eyes then she hugged me so tight.

"Jusko Meng, hindi mo manlang sinabi na na umuwi ka na pala..."

I just giggled and make face, they all laugh except my Ate Coleen. She arched her eyebrow. Then lumapit siya sa akin then she hugged me.

"Mag-uusap tayo mamaya."

She said, medyo seryoso ang mukha niya. I shivered, mukhang papagalitan nanaman ako netong babaeng to.

*****

"Where have you been?"

I took a deep breathe and looked at Coleen, she's still serious. I shook my head then stared at her.

"N-New York...."

I whispered then she just chuckled and glared at me.

"Akala ko ba nasa Baguio ka? Then bigla kang lumipad papuntang New York?"

"A-Ate, you don't need to know what happened."

Right now the only thing that I am really sure about is that I Love Him. But I can't, I dont want.

"Hindi ka ba naaawa kay RJ?"

"No..."

She took a deep breathe then she glared at me, wala siyang alam. Hindi niya alam ang nararamdaman ko ngayon at noon. I don't regret my past. I just regret the time I have wasted with the wrong people.

"When he broke-up with you, I get mad at him because he hurt you. But noong nagpakalayo-layo ka, ako lang ang pinagtatanungan ni RJ kung nasaang lupalop ka naroroon. Nagsisisi na siya, why don't you give a chance?"

"A chance? Bakit ako ba binigyan niya na chance na bumalik sa akin noon? Hindi diba? I told RJ that I love him, he told me the same. I wasn't lying, so why didn't he tell the truth?"

People say follow your heart...but which way do you go when your heart breaks into two?

"He still loves you--"

"My life, My choices, My problems, My mistakes, My lessons. Not your business, mind your own problems before you talk about mine."

I stood up, pati rin ba siya? Hindi nila ako naiintindihan, hindi nila alam kung gaano ako nasaktan. Hindi rin nila alam kung gaano ako umasa na mamahalin niya ako ulit.

Hindi nila alam na kinausap ko siya noon, pero sinabi niya na hindi niya na talaga ako mahal. So I let him go, but ngayon bakit niya sasabihin niya na he still loves me?

I want him back, but my mind doesnt want him to. He make so many promises but he can't even keep one. That's why I hate him so much, It's hurts.