My Random Crap

My dilemma

So I never text first.

It's not cause of any pride, or anything I just...can't be bothered. In my mind, if people wanna talk to me they can talk to me, I'm not gonna bother to push my presence onto them unless it's important.

So there's a handful of people I talk to everyday, and there's one specific one that texts me everyday, and if we haven't had a conversation that day, they'd at least tell me goodnight.

The only problem is when that someone misses a day....I feel kinda hollow inside, and like my day isn't complete. This is day two and still no message.

And you know what really hurts? Not the fact that we haven't texted. But they texted on a big group chat with like fifteen other people on it, knowing I am always on my tabley. And you know what really stings? The last time we texted I was in a pretty bad mood and they promised 'I'm always here for you' and when it came to saying goodbye they said 'I love you' so it kinda hurts that they say these things and then avoids me for awhile.

I just find it funny how when people make promises they go and break them.

But anyways, I COULD text first. But since I never do it, they'd think something was up.

We'll see how long this continues. I'm probably being overdramatic and a big baby.

Sooo yeah, there's my latest drama. I'm gonna go to sleep NW that that's off my chest.

Bye devils. I love you all.