My Random Crap

My Insomnia Has Gotten Worse

Hey....it's almost five in the morning....

And I can't sleep.

I have laid with my eyes shut for four hours, then it was two in the morning, so I went to see if anyone was awake on my group chat and someone was, we talked for awhile and he told me to go to sleep.

so I tossed and turned for three more hours.

Now here I am.

Wide awake.

I think some of my problems is the fact that I am convinced that my room is haunted, it makes so many sounds and my AM brain does not handle those sounds very well.

The other half of my problems are my conflicting emotions.

So yes, my ex drama is still going on, not as strong, now it's more internal damage.

I keep thinking of scenarios, and I keep remembering moments, and what could have been. Small things he did. I used to wake up to good morning texts and go to sleep to goodnight ones. He would make promises to me that no one really knew about. He used to rant to my best friend about how he felt about me and then she would send me screenshots. It was a whole year that felt so surreal and picturesque.

Whoops, guess I'm still living in the past.

I kind of feel like writing some kind of one shot maybe? I dunno, something to do while I'm awake I guess, so leave an AU and I may write something, depending on if I fall asleep or not before I get around to it.

I love you all devils, byeeeeeeeeeeeee.